Interviewed For Documentary - Now Anxious

[brokenchild]

I was interviewed for a documentary about human trafficking. I was fine for the first couple days after, but now I am extremely anxious any time I am not bust focusing on something else. I'm not triggered per se, I can still remember what happened and talk about it without getting triggered, but I'm not sure where this anxiety came from, and why it's here in the first place.

After having close to ZERO physiologically PTSD symptoms in almost a year, this is taking me completely by surprise.

 

[Grama-Herc]

I'm not surprised your symptoms have returned. What you did was monumental. It is far different than anything you have ever done before and reality is sinking in. Talking to your family, therapist or a trusted friend is WAY different that what you did. Knowing it will be seen by all has to be unnerving no matter where your head has been.

Ride out the storm. Be proud. It took enormous strength to do what you did and you should be extremely proud of yourself. I think it shows how far you have come in acceptance and how well you are proceeding with rebuilding your life, your souls and body.

Hold your head up high and for god sakes *BREATHE*

Grama-Herc

 

[anni]

I just had an entire weekend of not knowing what on earth to do with all the old stuff. It doesn't seem to matter how far behind one you think it all is, the stupid anxiety shows up out of the sky somewhere and just moves in uninvited for some surprise visit. I'm guessing it's probably something to do with the 'rewired' portion of the neurological system? We're rewired-things just work differently now and always will, apparently. That doesn't mean broken, just different.As well as we function, sometimes this stupid thing is just going to drop out of the sky with something when 'whatever' in there becomes stimulated.

You did an amazing thing, too! I'd rather eat a live chicken than be in front of a camera, speaking of the trauma on top of that! I've had to do it on something non-trauma related and just that sent the system into the stratosphere for a week. It sounds as if you're asking if it's 'normal' to have this reaction? In my opinion-non-medical and psychiatric( since I'm an artist, for heaven's sake and not qualified with a degree-just a ton of years with this stupid PTSD thing. It's a qualifying element, to be sure.) it seems to be normal to me. I'd have to say you did awfully well! If the anxiety persists, maybe getting back to your T would be helpful in helping getting back to where you were functioning comfortably again.

Thanks for posting, in point of fact. Maybe it was not the original intent of the post, but it was an awfully postive thing to read. I hope you're able to get things under control again very soon, and take care,

Anni

 

[Deleted member 541]

Awesome job, for what you did. You should be proud of yourself for facing this and being able to go through with the interview. The anxiety will pass, as it always does. Just remind yourself of what a great job you did with this....

 

[brokenchild]

Extrapolating on the interview. I was never on camera. I was going to be recorded in the shadows anyway so they saw no need to have me on camera and figured I'd be more comfortable off. It was just my voice that was recorded, and even that will be digitally altered.

I'm not surprised your symptoms have returned. What you did was monumental. It is far different than anything you have ever done before and reality is sinking in. Talking to your family, therapist or a trusted friend is WAY different that what you did. Knowing it will be seen by all has to be unnerving no matter where your head has been.

Ride out the storm. Be proud. It took enormous strength to do what you did and you should be extremely proud of yourself. I think it shows how far you have come in acceptance and how well you are proceeding with rebuilding your life, your souls and body.

Hold your head up high and for god sakes *BREATHE*

I'm trying to ride out the storm, I just seem to have forgotten how. I've never had a storm while I had as many responsibilities as I currently do. I work full time, am taking dance lessons, and preparing for a powerlifting competition next year.

You did an amazing thing, too! I'd rather eat a live chicken than be in front of a camera, speaking of the trauma on top of that! I've had to do it on something non-trauma related and just that sent the system into the stratosphere for a week. It sounds as if you're asking if it's 'normal' to have this reaction? In my opinion-non-medical and psychiatric( since I'm an artist, for heaven's sake and not qualified with a degree-just a ton of years with this stupid PTSD thing. It's a qualifying element, to be sure.) it seems to be normal to me. I'd have to say you did awfully well! If the anxiety persists, maybe getting back to your T would be helpful in helping getting back to where you were functioning comfortably again.

As I said above, I wasn't on camera. I'm not sure how I would have done if I was. I don't have a therapist anymore and have never had one (regular outpatient that is) that had a clue what I was talking about. I normally had to define what human trafficking was and it was all downhill from there.

Awesome job, for what you did. You should be proud of yourself for facing this and being able to go through with the interview. The anxiety will pass, as it always does. Just remind yourself of what a great job you did with this....

I keep trying, but more and more I am regretting doing it.

 

[anni]

Well, on camera or off, the word 'interview' would still have sent me through the roof. :) If you're having second and third thoughts about having done it ( probably wouldn't be unusual given some pretty awful circumstances for anyone, don't you think?) maybe coming here and just 'unloading' would help. There are an awful lot of really just plain common-sense takes on things from people here. Sometimes I'll be feeling just dreadful and lost on something, someone will point out something that just never occured to me before.SO helpful!