Intro

[Deleted member 10686]

Hi, I suppose this is where I should introduce myself, though I must admit I am nervous to share much. Hopefully that will subside :)

I am 23 years old, and just recently worked up the courage to leave my husband. I have struggled with depression and anxiety since I was younger, however within my relationship and marriage developed PTSD due to ongoing abuse of all kinds. I was only diagnosed as having PTSD about two weeks ago, previously diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder but it seems now that it has been ptsd for quite some time. I am gay, which has made it more complicated in finding resources to help me. I was lucky enough that the domestic violence shelter here did help me whenever i would walk through those doors terrified. I have an amazing therapist that I actually do trust most of the time... besides those times when my mind tries to force me to shut up and not trust him let alone anybody else. So....I'm not sure what else to share here. I am just hoping to find some support and make some friends that are going through some of the same things. Sometimes all of this just feels so out of my realm, just overwhelming.

 

[James B.]

Hello forwardmotion462, welcome to the forum.

 

[Froggie]

Welcome to the forum forwardmotion462. I find you did really well with your introduction. I erased mine a few times before I had the guts to post it ! I understand that you are under full of pressure with this separation and finding out that you are dealing with PTSD. There are great wiki articles here that will help demystify this ailment. Wishing you much luck with all those changes in your life and will be looking forward to reading your posts.

 

[Deaf Global Nomad]

Hi Forwardmotion462,

Welcome to the Forum! I hope that you find helpful resources here that fit your needs. Feel free to ask any questions you may have as well. It definitely sounds like there is a lot going on in your life. I'm sure that you will find lots of support here. What kinds of problems have you encountered in finding resources because you are gay? I have found plenty myself, but I'm thinking it is different.

Take care!

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum :)

You did a wonderful job introducing yourself. Very good ! :tup:

 

[Deleted member 10686]

Thanks :) I was actually really worried i didn't introduce myself well so I appreciate the responses. There is just so much to say and not words or courage to say it all yet! @froggie, yes I am under an extreme amount of pressure recently. My ptsd is actually a result of abuse from my now ex, I finally decided enough is enough and left him but with that being said, the fear and intimidation has gotten worse with my leaving. I have a son and he is threatening to tell the police and child protective services that I hurt my child, and take him away from me forever. Of course it is untrue, but it still feels like constant intimidation or punishment for me leaving. And on top of that finding I have ptsd, because of him.

@nomad, Most of my problem has been finding legal assistance because services like legal aid can't seem to wrap their head around the situation. I also had some difficulties at the local dv center, because they are so used to only having women come in that I felt like they weren't believing what I was saying. There is the bias that men are the abusers, but when a man comes in it seems like they have to do a double take. it might just be my own perception though....I was really nervous to seek help.

Anyway, hope i didnt say to much :) thank you all

 

[Nighthawk]

Congrats on joining and getting down as much as you did.

Welcome to the forum:D

 

[Dani]

welcome! Tis, a good place to start!