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Bampet

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Hi my name is Beverley I use Bampet as my online name. I am 63, and live in Perth Western Australia. I have been actively working on child hood sexual abuse for years. I started my recovery when I was 39. I had married my third husband, and we went to Thailand on our honeymoon. He came from Thailand and we had gone there to finalise his affairs before permanently settling in Australia.

One day he said he had to go to a small town to visit his parents. He told me to stay in the hotel and wait for him. But I never saw him again. I was abandoned in Thailand with no money and just my passport. I had put the phone number of the Baptist church in my hand bag before venturing over seas. So I got some Thai people in a corner shop to phone the number and I then got help to go to the embassy. And I still can't write about what happened as it is still a night mare to me.

On returning to Australia I had a break down and have been on disability and anti depressants ever since. This all opened the door for me to get help which I did. I went to 12 step groups two therapist and a psychiatrist. I truly thought that I had deal with everything, until my friend's husband exposed himself to me.. Whether it was intentional or not, when I tried to talk this over with my friend she turned her head away from me. And I then went into insomnia. I have worked on this and traced it, tried to feel my feelings, did some journaling and then thought well now I should be able to sleep, but no sleep. I have left a lot out, but at least I have started sharing about this, thank you, bampet (Bev)
 
Hi Bampet and welcome to the forum. I cannot imagine just how scary it was to be abandoned in a foreign country, by someone who is supposed to love you! How strong you were to be able to find a way to help yourself out of that situation. I'm sorry that you've had to experience such trauma in your life. But I'm glad you were strong enough to get help for it.
 
Thank you BeeLee, and thank you Ayesha and thank you Cherry blossom. I started posting here yesterday and already I can feel a shift within. I was able to get a bit more sleep last night. Today I took my three granddaughters out shopping with my elderly Mother. And when I got into bed I realised that my inner child wants me to speak up. What a revelation. My eldest two granddaughter 6 and 7 have both been sexually abused by their other grand mother. I was the one that helped them disclose to their mother and I love and support them as much as I can. But my inner child wants me to speak up for her. And I only realised this tonight. I can't write any more so thanks for reading, Bampet (Bev)
 
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