Is It Me, Or Am I Going Insane?

[DaisySH]

So.. ok.. here goes... I have been diagnosed with PTSD.... The last couple of days have been really weird...Granted the last few months of my life have definitely been tough.... going through divorce, finally being diagnosed after 10 plus years... living with all of this bottled up... My husband has PTSD... financial problems.. etc... its been hell the past few months...well now... I have been experiencing panic attacks.. so much anxiety.. and the worst part.. horrible mood changes... I can wake up happy.. elated.. not a care in the world...my problems are nothing but a speck in the mirror..and the such an intense change... I feel horrible.. so depressed, and life is not worth it... I just want to lay in bed and not eat or move... idk what is wrong with me... am I making this up? is it a call for attention? Am I going insane? idk what to think anymore.. please, any imput is welcomed. thx

 

[Changing4Best]

This can happen to us, PTSD can cause all kinds of emotions. Sit back, take a few deep breaths, try to look at anything that is going well in your life and then relax into thinking about that. Are you in therapy? If not, you might want to contact a therapist.

 

[DaisySH]

This can happen to us, PTSD can cause all kinds of emotions. Sit back, take a few deep breaths, try...

Thanks Sheila, I am.. I just started this week.. It was just something that hit me out of nowhere and honestly it made me feel like I was losing it...

 

[Changing4Best]

No, I have gone through similar things, and I am in treatment with therapy and meds for over 10 years. It still happens sometimes. I don't want to discourage you, that is why it is so important to think positive, look for happy things in your life and focus on them. It is so easy to fall headlong into the bad emotions and get lost there. Try not to do that!

 

[DaisySH]

I am definitely working on that Sheila.. I just wasn't sure if it was "normal" I am trying my best to go to therapy and not focus on those millions of negative things happening in my life.. Obviously I am a work in progress... thanks for reading

 

[Sideways]

You are not insane!!

Actually, it sounds like kind of a logical emotional response, fluctuating between extremes of elation and depression. Divorce, diagnosis, starting therapy - they're all really significant changes coming in thick and fast, and they're all hopeful and traumatic at the same time. They all signal the start of a new phase in your life, one where things could actually start to dramatically improve. At the same time, they're all intense, emotionally draining, and the end product of some of the biggest difficulties that you've probably had in your life.

If your brain is fluctuating between "this is great, I'm moving forward" and "this is really stressful and bringing out all my old demons and what the hell comes next?", then, to me, it makes sense that your emotions would be equally unstable.

Maybe focus on your basic needs and being kind to yourself for awhile. As life settles, hopefully the emotions will too. Both divorce, and confronting ptsd, take immense amounts of courage - that's seriously impressive. It won't be easy, but I hope the journey ahead brings you to the life that you want and deserve:)

 

[DaisySH]

You are not insane!!

Actually, it sounds like kind of a logical emotional response, fluctuating...

Thank you so much rag doll. I thought oh god, I'm getting worse! It makes sense that all of these changes are affecting me.. I try to take it one moment at a time because I don't want my panic attacks to get worse... I appreciate you taking the time to read! :)

 

[Kailani]

Hi welcome! Think you are normal!!! Stress does that! Love the tip from sheilakathy. We can all try to focus on positive; sometimes emotions can take us on a tailspin! Hope this forum helps you! You are not alone!