Sufferer Is There Help?

[Goodgirl]

Hi:
I am going through some really difficult issues, my husband's infidelity (sex addiction), my mother-in-law's terminal illness and all thats related to that, and my narcissistic mother's declining health and ultimate demise. I found this new therapist who believes I have CPTSD.

I grew up with a narcissistic alcoholic mother and a verbally abusive alcoholic step father - my bio-dad died when I was 8, and needless to say the parents who raised me were not only abusive in many ways, they were extremely neglectful. The thought that I have cptsd or even ptsd never occurred to me and I was just wondering if anyone out there can give me any helpful advice.

I feel sort of relieved as I am reading up on cptsd and it's comforting to know that the things I have felt almost my whole life are real and that Im not crazy, but Im just at the beginning of my journey all the while planning my divorce and helping a dear loved one pass to the next life.

I have to be the strong one bc it seems that no one will take the bull by the horns, but I feel so alone and paralyzed by fear. Why am I so afraid that I won't be able to take care of myself or navigate through this life by myself. Why am I so afraid to let go of these abusive people, they don't help me they seem to hinder me and hold me down but for some reason I can't seem to trust myself enough to move forward.

Any helpful, thoughtful advice would be much appreciated.

Peace

 

[Anarchy]

Hi Goodgirl,
Welcome to the forum.

You've come to a safe place, with a bunch of great people who know exactly what it's like.

From what you've described of your background and your current circumstances, C-PTSD would be very likely.

Looks like your therapist is on the ball.

Take some time to look around, there are some good articles and resources as well as the forum threads.

 

[shimmerz]

Yes, there is help. Lots of it. It will come with a ton of hard work too.... just remember to give yourself credit along the way for reaching out, resourcing information, learning, growing. Welcome.

 

[intothelight]

@Goodgirl Welcome to the forum! :)

Yes, there is help out there and it sounds like you are on the right track with a good therapist. This site is also a huge help with information, ideas and the support a person needs as they work on their recovery.