Sexual Assault It’s hard being a survivor

[Friday]

Rule is life beyond ruin. Live less ruining, coss my lambs been slaughtered, yet the innocence is a pride. Not for me for what no other will feel me, and sense my urge to shock less, pre- trauma, health buck, a f*ck you. Vipers bite less, ptsd sliver plated is a you can not imagine you wishfiled trajan, Helen of troy finds easier ease ... when you suffer, never ever would it want more. Painless VIO _VIP

Rules keep people safe, or are pointless, and should be changed &/or ignored IMO/IME

This site has only 4 rules, but a both detailed & simple/straightforward community constitution; very much along the lines of “The more rules, the less justice.”

If you have an issue, or would wish to understand better the rules & ethos, here? Please use Contact Us, rather than replying to mod posts mid thread.

ALL members are both welcome & encouraged to use contact us, or report (found at the base of every post), to get in contact with staff, directly. I had to read that, a couple few dozen times -as a new member- to really take that risk, but? We really do mean it. Report, Report, Report …&… Contact Us, Contact Us, Contact us. We’re not a call center in India. We’re MyPTSD members. With a few extra tasks/responsibilities. Here to help, or at least try to.

 

[Mary. OoH]

Rules keep people safe, or are pointless, and should be changed &/or ignored IMO/IME

This site has only 4 rules, but a both detailed & simple/straightforward community constitution; very much along the lines of “The more rules, the less justice.”

If you have an issue, or would wish to understand better the rules & ethos, here? Please use Contact Us, rather than replying to mod posts mid thread.

ALL members are both welcome & encouraged to use contact us, or report (found at the base of every post), to get in contact with staff, directly. I had to read that, a couple few dozen times -as a new member- to really take that risk, but? We really do mean it. Report, Report, Report …&… Contact Us, Contact Us, Contact us. We’re not a call center in India. We’re MyPTSD members. With a few extra tasks/responsibilities. Here to help, or at least try to.

Rules keep people safe, or are pointless, and should be changed &/or ignored IMO/IME

This site has only 4 rules, but a both detailed & simple/straightforward community constitution; very much along the lines of “The more rules, the less justice.”

If you have an issue, or would wish to understand better the rules & ethos, here? Please use Contact Us, rather than replying to mod posts mid thread.

ALL members are both welcome & encouraged to use contact us, or report (found at the base of every post), to get in contact with staff, directly. I had to read that, a couple few dozen times -as a new member- to really take that risk, but? We really do mean it. Report, Report, Report …&… Contact Us, Contact Us, Contact us. We’re not a call center in India. We’re MyPTSD members. With a few extra tasks/responsibilities. Here to help, or at least try to.

Not everyone is able for technology. And it's new for me as my ptsd affect sensory times online. I ain't living for the beep of a tick of a phone. Spending time with me is important. And if references to learning technology is an issue then maybe the people ideas of website and phones could be reviewed. As this is very very new and scary to me. Online and technology is challenging for many following trauma events. And our sensory responses alter and adapt following. So while phones were born, I was dead.

I ain't nine this for a badge, I wear my medals on my sleeve.. and direct or vent or not.

This is new and outta my understanding .. thses phones, websites and egos.

Community is a commune the is a unity if union in a shared sensation. Why hide that. Why expose a need to expose.

That irrelevance to a rule or society online. Ad we live in different cultures, countries and locations. Our rules are not shares. Yet our sensations are. And I your out to rule the rule then maybe you should revise the need to recover cos I won't be beaten for long. And I never stay down. I love an support and love up and on to better able my life. Living with people who shade away from feelings above rules.

Ifs that's an issue get me removed... as vents are part of wonder and wonder is venting to revisit a means to relieve and release and move forward.

Draining drained resources is as the world does. Drawing the words of today to ignite a rule..is a control no one will hold over or on me.

No person steals my personal will.. as free will was not an option till today.

, anger is hurt poured to pain. And pain is inflicted upon to ease and security. People are over rated . And clicks ain't the aim of my life or day. Enjoying my life and shifting is.

So where or what the errors or... clarify... or ignore. They are also a option with modern media. Choose...and allow others to breathe.

 

[Sideways]

Mod Note:
@Mary. OoH - stop thread-jacking. If you need to vent, create a Trauma Diary.

 

[Mary. OoH]

Mod Note:
@Mary. OoH - stop thread-jacking. If you need to vent, create a Trauma Diary.

No idea what you Internet hogging weirdos are talking about. Not a media obsessed junkie. So vary or define the variances of a vent vs a response ? Cos it's not very obvious for all. And aim to use full words.

My diary is written with a pen.. daily. Phone is minimum 2 hrs as my personal experiences ain't left to having relationships with websites or devices. I aim to attitude amd mentalities and the best recover for me.




And if this website is assigned to not entertainment and better mentalities then .. you'll have to clarify.

 

[Mary. OoH]

Mod Note:
@Mary. OoH - stop thread-jacking. If you need to vent, create a Trauma Diary.

What the hell is " thread jacking" ?

 

[Sideways]

Mod Note:
Sorry for the disruption folks, we can return to our thread again now!

 

[Dee88]

I’m a sexual abuse/assault survivor
I’m currently undergoing treatment for ptsd for it, they seem to think I may have it.

I can’t help to notice an awful amount of posts of confessions on this page for crimes they have committed, think that’s a bit beyond being a safe place for no judgment but that’s none of my business, I’m not really surprised really, I mean I have this awful intrusive thought most days that there is more abusers than everyone really knows, they think I’m paranoid, I’ve shared it with my counsellor; I guess it’s my idea from my experiences.

Really I don’t know how I can move forward in life living with all the things that has happened and how people decided to treat me I don’t think I can move past it and live a normal life after all, think it’s just hanging on to hope when I feel it possible, I think I may feel like this for the rest of my life and there’s nothing I can do, I try and get help but even then I’m like what is it helping; it’s just nothing seems to help it, about 15 years ago I thought to myself surely this isn’t gonna be me for the rest of my life I’m sure it’ll get better, it has to get better. No one ever really told me it would get better so I guess it never does. You know like with an accident people say you’ll be okay you just need.. but this type of thing they ask how I am knowing I will say nothing it’s all quite strange. This has been going on for far too long, it’s so draining for the last 17years.

Hi Hopemeanslife!!
I share your concern about the truth behind people, not just sex offenders, but they are clearly committing crimes that change life as we know it. I am not here to judge anyone, and perhaps a sex offender needs healing from past violence committed against them, and that is fair, and also, they do not have the right to assault. I do not know exactly where the healing spot is, but you deserve to find peace in your own body. It is yours, and yours alone. You have a right to feel afraid, but living in fear is not freeing. Validate your feelings and see how you feel. It can be exhausting carrying this emotional weight. Another member mentioned the book, Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving by Pete Walker. One passage on page 256, he says, "I believe that emotional tiredness comes from not resting enough in a safe relationship with yourself or with another." Is there anything you like doing that brings you joy? I wish you wellness and comfort in your body.
Dee88