A few weeks ago my grandmother passed. And i know all funeral's don't feel real to people because they are just so sad because you will miss the person etc.
But to me, it didn't feel real. I was crying my eyes out and part of me just didn't know why. i have been to a few other funerals...but this one it didn't feel real in my mind. I just couldn't place the reason why i was crying but i knew i was upset about seeing my grandma like that. :(
I just don't know. I got a new dog last December. I just don't feel attached to her like my older dog i had that passed away in 2009. (The day after the 3rd anniversary of the incident that occured on 9-11-2007). I knew that there wasn't anything bout the time we got the new dog because we just didn't go out and adopt a new dog once my baby passed in 2009. It just like different w/ this one. She's a chihuahua and she uses a pee pad instead of going out most of the time. She's older so I doubt there will be any change if we try to train her to go out. But anyway.
I just don't feel connected to anybody i used to. Not even my parents all that much any more. I guess because i associated them with traditions that i will miss when they pass away 20 - 30 years into the future. I also am disconnected from time. The clock reads 11:59am.. but now it just feels like numbers. it doesn't FEEL like 11:59am or anything. :( which is why i think i have trouble going to sleep.
HELP.?.
But to me, it didn't feel real. I was crying my eyes out and part of me just didn't know why. i have been to a few other funerals...but this one it didn't feel real in my mind. I just couldn't place the reason why i was crying but i knew i was upset about seeing my grandma like that. :(
I just don't know. I got a new dog last December. I just don't feel attached to her like my older dog i had that passed away in 2009. (The day after the 3rd anniversary of the incident that occured on 9-11-2007). I knew that there wasn't anything bout the time we got the new dog because we just didn't go out and adopt a new dog once my baby passed in 2009. It just like different w/ this one. She's a chihuahua and she uses a pee pad instead of going out most of the time. She's older so I doubt there will be any change if we try to train her to go out. But anyway.
I just don't feel connected to anybody i used to. Not even my parents all that much any more. I guess because i associated them with traditions that i will miss when they pass away 20 - 30 years into the future. I also am disconnected from time. The clock reads 11:59am.. but now it just feels like numbers. it doesn't FEEL like 11:59am or anything. :( which is why i think i have trouble going to sleep.
HELP.?.
