It's Hard To Be Honest In Sessions

[Iam]

Thanks Jade for sharing....it gives me encouragement that maybe I can do the same thing tonight with my T......we'll see......aggghhhh, see...... I am panicked just thinking (get the word there) about it ;o)

 

[Jade-]

You said you sometimes disassociate and your therapist fears you are unable to protect yourself, or get out of situations safely . This could be the reason your T. reported the situation.

Just to update: My son is on proabtion and living with us. His probation officer is making sure things are ok here. So I guess it's a good thing my T. reported it.

 

[AdamAnt]

I'm glad to hear that Jade...was worried that the report might violate his probation and send your son back to the clink...as it is he has REAL incentive to manage himself.

 

[Jade-]

Yes he does have REAL incentive to manage himself, not only with his addiction but with his physical/verbal abuse. I feel pretty safe with him here, especially knowing his probation officer is aware of his abusive history, and that he is checking up on it.

 

[Iam]

I'm glad Jade. I worried for your safety too. Your T has reallly been helping you and it is wonderful to see you making progress because of it.

 

[Jade-]

I started this thread because I was having a hard time being honest in sessions. I did tell one big "secret" and it was painful, but it really helped. Since then, I've gone back to not being honest.

But I'm worn down and not getting where I want/need to get. I'm wasting my time and money by hiding things, lying about things and avoiding things. I'm to the point where I'm ready to tell everything.

I honestly want to get better. I'm tired of living this way. So I'm ready to do whatever and tell whatever I have to in order to help myself. I feel like these secrets are slowly rotting my soul. It's time to get rid of them instead of pretending I'm ok. I'm really not ok and won't be until I do.