Jaded?

[LanaD]

Hi everyone,

Last week things kinda fell apart because of a man I was seeing and I've been trying to hold it together while my mind spins. One of the things I'm dealing with is work search. My assault happened at work and it threw off my whole year - I haven't worked since Spring (northern hemisphere).

I'm looking for work (freelance or employee) but I literally cringe at every job description I read, which doesn't seem to be related to the assault, but I'm having a hard time keeping my thoughts straight about anything, which does seem to be a side effect of the assault. I'm looking at this as a blessing in disguise work-wise, because if I have to read about KPIs or ROI again I'll have to become a hermit in the jungle. That crap is mind-numbing!!! That said, I am afraid that if I do get a job I won't be able to perform because of my mind's messed up state.

If anyone has any words of support or any advice I'd really appreciate it. It's like my thought process simply cuts off at times. I'd like to change careers, actually, and I hope my mind would be able to cope.

Thank you!

 

[Hope69]

Hi Lana. Sounds like I difficult time. I understand the challenge with concentration . Do you have a therapist/ counsellor ? Any family or friends ?

 

[LanaD]

Hi Lana. Sounds like I difficult time. I understand the challenge with concentration . Do you have a the...

My therapy's focus is not the assault, so it's a bit challenging - helpful in many ways of course, but challenging. My therapist says to talk to my friends about things but the few friends I'm still in touch with and my family don't quite "get what the big deal is." They don't understand why I don't just get my life together, so I'm pretty much on my own. I don't really know what to do and feel like a kid and I'm scared half the time, which all add to the problem.

 

[Hope69]

I can relate. Its difficult for others who have not experienced similar issues to "get it". DO feel you need to address the assault in order to move through that trauma? Can you address this with your T? As for family, if you think they will be understanding, it can help to give them some information about how trauma affects the brain. It isn't so much about choosing to move on as it is about rewiring the brain, which takes time. As for fear, there are ways to work with that ( mindfulness, grounding, distraction) to get through the difficult moments.
I have to say, this is also a good place to reach out since everyone is understanding.
I hope things get easier for you soon :)

 

[LanaD]

I can relate. Its difficult for others who have not experienced similar issues to "get it". DO feel you...

Thank you! This is the only place where I feel anyone understands. I was doing fine for a while there, but the events last week just messed everything up.