((((( Serene)))))
I am very sad that we feel this way! I really understand. I had a blood issue and felt like a lot of people on here.....no treatment. Because it is not a matter of Cancer or PTSD.......it would be a matter of both. NO WAY. No possible way.
I felt very guilty and cried and begged for something or someone to make my mind healthy enough to care...... it stabilized and I was happy.
But I am once again in the clutches of PTSD that is making me reel.
I also have been in therapy for a long time. There is no shame there. I was misdiagnosed for many years which lead to a tremendous amount of very damaging therapy---it would be like if you were told you had schizoprenia and did not but were subjected to injections, long term hospitalizations, shock, etc and then they discovered you had autism. That is not exactly how it went. It is too painful to even go into, but that is the idea. AND that is not even the cause of my PTSD. That is all on top of it.
Then, I was retraumatized many years later, after I had had a bit of recovery, so that threw me right back into therapy. Life does not stop when you have PTSD. And the second time was wayyyy worse so I feel rather smashed.
Yes, sometimes people think, "What, are you just cursed? Are YOU doing something wrong? Are you not trying?" And while they care and want to help, the fact is, that sometimes people have very difficult things, one after another.
If it takes 40 years of therapy, so be it. At least you are here and fighting! :)
