Sufferer Just Another Crazy Vet

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Most of us do suffer from depression. It's only when the trauma is revealed that our depression is linked to PTSD.

 

[Deadman]

True enough. Though I wasn't depressed the first time they told me I was. That happened much later.

 

[Susan Sleepless]

Yes i understand the Welcome the Ghosts, just started acceptance and commitment therapy. I cant stop my thoughts but saying "thanks brain, i see that" does seem to make the thought hang around less. But i guess I never thought of them as ghosts, makes sense. "Thanks brain, I see that, yes, yes, I know, but time to let you go"
Having said that, good news, 6 hours solid sleep last night!

 

[Deadman]

good news, 6 hours solid sleep last night!

Amazing isn't it? Something so many people take for granted.

 

[Esterio]

Hi there Deadman
Sorry this has taken me so long to respond to your post. Welcome and I am glad you have found us. I am also glad you can see the edge. I hope you make it to the surface soon. I am sorry for your trauma and I appreciate all that you did to try and make the world a better place. Welcome I like to see you out in the forums and appreciate your responses.
Peace be safe

 

[Susan Sleepless]

Amazing isn't it? Something so many people take for granted.

Yep, and not to be gross but had a good poop today too! Trazadone constipates!

 

[Hardtke]

It would help me alot to stop watching the freakin news... I get calls from old buddies asking me what I think about it.. "are we about to get into some shit Gunny??" Then I begin to think about the what ifs and my heart starts pounding.. It's such a volatile time and my mind only allows me to be frosty and that means having the information so it's hard for me not to listen to it... why can't it all end... where the hell are all the sunshine and rainbows? End of rant

 

[Susan Sleepless]

Yep news is a tough one, i watch very limited.
Although I might sound crazy when I am asked a question and say "oh i dont really watch news"
Watching sports is good though, and thankfully I read, lots of mild fiction with a
Happy ending. Denial? Meh, works for me.

 

[Deadman]

Yeah I struggle with the news too. The trouble is I always feel guilty when I it involves some humanitarian crisis. There is always that little whisper in the back of my head that says "If you weren't so weak you could be doing something about that".

 

[Susan Sleepless]

Ahhh, weak, totally, struggle with weak and shame, i can't soldier anymore shameful, i can't be effective like i used to be, then add the whole female soldier issue blahhhh.
But Deadman, we are human, we did our bit, a huge bit I imagine and now we need to take care of US.

 

[ladee]

Not weak, not at all, if you had not gone, and left pieces
of your heart and soul, to those that did receive it.... it would be worse than it is... hopefully you showed some of them how to pay it forward.... you are not weak Deadman.... far from it... Before I logged in a few minutes ago, and saw that you had posted, I had been thinking about you and was wondering, how did you come back and have any compassion or empathy for trivial things???

Not a question you have to answer.... You did things I wanted to do, but knew I was the weak one and could not survive what I would see and have to do... I can only speak for myself here, but you are so forthcoming about your experiences, you help to keep my own life in perspective....

You are still in humanitarian services... you are here, teaching us... if there was ever a group that needed reminding things could be so much worse, well, will speak for myself, it is me.... Thank you for the courage it takes to share and to let us know of your history... and your here and now...I hope my words do not sound hollow... they come from my heart...

Nothing weak about you.... I'm sorry you have to be here, but I am admittedly selfish and will take all the teachers I can find....

 

[Ronin]

"If you weren't so weak you could be doing something about that".

... and if you weren't so strong you'd be gone by now and couldn't care about moving the shit one way or the other. ;)

Know how many people capable of doing something about it don't give a rat's ass?
Yet here you are & do give all the damns there are to give. In my book that's honor, homie.