Just got a tattoo...and now freaking out

[Chosen]

I just got a tattoo, and now I'm so deep in regret and self-hatred. Why was I so stupid as to get a foreign entity etched on my skin? I want to tear it out and make it go away so I can get my skin back. Why was I so stupid? I hate myself so much right now. And I paid $50 for it, and now I'm gonna have to pay a boatload of money to get it removed. This sucks so much.

Why didn't I Google tattoo regret before and take more time? I should have gotten it in henna a few times beforehand. :( :(

 

[Buddyholly09]

What hurts you will make you stronger. Lessons are blessings you will learn through.

 

[Friday]

If you didn't know beforehand... Getting a tattoo causes a really big endorphin rush. Which is both why they can be addictive for some folks, are used as a coping mechanism for others ...AND... can cause your stress cup to overflow. Either in the sudden rush of adrenaline & endorphins, or in the crash. Meaning before you tear your skin off? Destress / ground / self care. The same way you would for any other big stressful thing. It may well not be regret, so much as the stressor. Give it a few days.

 

[The Albatross]

Is it really the tattoo or is it the making of an error or a mistake,the feelings of regret and self hatred?
Sometimes I have to unpack my reaction to stuff. Often it's not the offense, mistake, situation... it's the feelings underneath it.

Agree with Friday to wait a few days. In my own case, the guy who did my tattoo transferred the image reversed and I didn't notice one of the legs was backwards. I felt stupid as hell and was upset at myself but ya know what? No one has ever noticed, and the only reason my husband knows is because I told him. Hope you feel better about it soon, however if you go for removal do your research and make sure you get someone who's highly recommended?

 

[FireSign8]

I have to guess that for $50.00, the tat isn't that big. There is a good chance that when the gun hit your skin, that the vibration of the "machine" was enough to open up one of your chakra points & you MAY have taken on some negative energy that was floating around the place where you got the tat or the person holding the gun transferred some of their energy to you & now you fell a bit "discombobulated"! Also possible you have an ink sensitivity, or the ointment is making you feel like your skin is on fire.

There are many others reasons why you feel you may want to rip off your skin. I would say to contact the person who did the tat & if it's a licensed shop, they should be able to give you more insight. If NOT & you just had some yahoo do it for you, keep it disinfected, keep it out of the sun, keep an eye on it & if it continues to redden or itch more, there's a good chance you have a bacterial infection taking root in your skin. This will need a 10 day dose of antibiotics that only a medical doctor can prescribe for you. So, there is a possibility that cheap tat will end up costing you 5 times more in the end.

I hope it's just a case of your skin needing time to adjust to the newly "altered/damaged" state that a needle pounding into it has left you with...or you are constipated with extra uninvited energy! I doubt this is gonna kill you & I really think you are being far too hard on yourself. I would wonder why the tattoo artist didn't zero in on your naïveté & advise you to think about it beforehand. They must have really needed the extra money to take it from you. So sad for the industry.:mad:

Anyway, if you can do so, find yourself a tree in a quiet place, & sit with your back up against it & ask for an exchange of energy. Be polite. Just like it was a person - ask if you can get some help with the problem you are having & gift the tree with your unneeded negative energy in exchange for it's positive energy & then breath in & out at least 3 times & when you feel like getting up, say thank you to the tree & go about your merry way. If you feel the earth needs a gift for it's services, pour a bit of the beverage you have in your hand onto the ground...or simply leave a tiny stone or other item from your hand to the earth that the tree grows/lives in!:rolleyes::)

I just got a tattoo, and now I'm so deep in regret and self-hatred. Why was I so stupid as to get a fore...

 

[Chosen]

Physically, it seems fine. I've just been having this weird anxiety about having a foreign entity/object inside my skin. I don't really understand it.

I think some of why this is so hard is that this tattoo is to honor my adopted dad who just recently died (March 28th)....and this tattoo is making me go from all the bursts of denial right into the trauma of reality over and over again. I wish I had waited much longer to do this. And I was kinda angry and feeling rebellious because my dad just died and so it was sort of acting out, too. Albeit a mild way.

There was going to be more of the tattoo but I stopped them after the words were done.

This morning I feel a little better about it, but I'm still just....I wish I had waited a few months to make sure I REALLY wanted to do this instead of something else.

And I guess it's a lot easier to have moments pretending my dad isn't dead when there's not a freaking tattoo on my shoulder reminding me that he is. :(

 

[FireSign8]

Physically, it seems fine. I've just been having this weird anxiety about having a foreign entity/object...

The ink IS a foreign body & it's gonna be there for eternity. Even if you have it lasered off, the deed has been done & that substance will be in your body 4 ever. It's not a bad thing. Just a foreign thing to your body & it will take some time to get used to it. I gave myself a tat when I was a teen & every time I look at it I am reminded of a time I just took life on the fly & never thought about tomorrow. I never dreamed I would live past 30. I did & now I want more tats, but cannot find an artist who I can trust yet. Or one I can afford!

So, that exchange of energy with a tree will be helpful with the balance between you & your Dad too. I don't think he would want you to feel bad about doing things on your own terms. Our parents often become better friends once they leave their bodies! I know my abusive Mother certainly calmed down after she died. I no longer feel like I'm being judged harshly by her.
It will take you some time to find a balance with your Dad, yourself & your new tattoo. But I guarantee you that it will come & you will someday not feel so strange about your "little friend" aka known as tattoo!<<<haha, just thought of the old Love Boat television series where the little guy was actually named Tattoo!:roflmao:

 

[The Albatross]

Come back to the original reason you decided/chose to do this?

The foreign object thing is past... it was an unintended consequence of a choice. That happens. Whatchu got for management?

 

[Buddyholly09]

I am VERY picky of what I will allow inked on me. A tattoo has to be a very sure decision. I enjoy the art and uniqueness of tattoos. I feel they can be symbolic and convey a story.

 

[CT_Girl]

I have a tattoo that I regret getting but it's pretty small and it's on my upper arm so I can cover it up most of the time and I usually don't even remember it's there. Maybe with time you will get used to it? Another option is getting it covered up with another tattoo design later