"just Kick Me"

[EmmaDancing]

I cannot get along in the real world

I feel this way as well. You're not alone in that.

I don't think the problem is you. As others have said, the problem lies with the people who act that way; although I suppose blaming the girl isn't really right either. (stoping myself before I get really philosophical :/ ). I agree with [DLMURL="https://www.myptsd.com/c/members/jmni.18732/"]jmni[/DLMURL], an anonymous complaint would be a good way to go.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I agree with joeylittle, but only partially, as not everyone is capable of having a different view easily. To most physical moves my reaction is 'kill or be killed', so I can't even reassess the situation before trying to get away from the source and being at a safe distance, ready to fight for my life. And to otger things I either run away physically or just fade into my own 'safe' world mentally. If only I had another, better personality, that could stand up for me and fight!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Everyone had so many great suggestions to share. I do not deal with the real world at all and in a few months I will be looking for a job and I have already decided not to mention my PTSD at all. It is none of their business.

I am pretty shy and I have already made the choice not to become friendly with any co workers at all. I only have to deal with them at work and my life is pretty drama free at this point.

I am so glad you work at a place where you love your job. I wish you the best in finding a right solution with this problem co worker soon.

I plan on keeping my head down and just do the best I can with the job I have to do.

I wish you the very best with this problem person. The only thing useful that I can think of is to have strong boundries with her.

 

[Notsowild]

In my case, I have initiated the process of applying for medical/benefits with my state... This however is a forever waiting game for me which is not helping my emotional/physical wellbeing. :(

@SeanGeo...Are you talking about disability benefits? I was thinking about applying too. Maybe I just can't handle work anymore.

 

[Notsowild]

@JEKBreatheandBelieve...I work in a building with about 100 workers. Some are co-workers and some work for another company in the same building. But I have to interact with most of them on a daily basis. I would like to tell my co-workers but... I'm scared to be thought of differently. But then maybe they'd understand some of my quirkiness. It's a tough call. My friend that works there who knows still doesn't quite understand it. She still has this puzzled look on her face when I talk about it. And she thinks I should be magically over it now too.

 

[Notsowild]

If only I had another, better personality, that could stand up for me and fight!

That's me. That's why I blame myself. I feel they see this weak vulnerable person and these strong domineering people step all over me.

Everyone had so many great suggestions to share. I do not deal with the real world at all and in a few months I will be looking for a job and I have already decided not to mention my PTSD at all. It is none of their business.

Thank you. So you don't feel your PTSD will affect your job at all ? Just curious. I still do my job well but having to communicate with people is my downfall. I still get panicked with these strong personalities.
Btw... Good luck job hunting. I hope you find your dream job.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

'm scared to be thought of differently. But then maybe they'd understand some of my quirkiness. It's a tough call.

I don't have 100 workers in my building. It took me over a year to decide to tell my co-workers. I definitely understand that it can't work for everyone.

 

[bell]

Okay, just a thought, but if this keeps happening to you... What are the chances you are inviting this behavior vs. only meeting assholes?

Sometimes when the only common denominator is you, it's time to look at your own actions. I've had to do it and it's not easy, but it works.

Most of the time when you think the whole world wants you down it means reorienting your world view, not that you just have bad luck.

 

[Notsowild]

Hi @bell... Oh yes totally agree with you. It is me. I'm playing a victim role. Not on purpose but I can see it in my actions. Need to learn to set boundaries and communicate better. I've had complex PTSD from childhood so I've always had a hard time interacting with people. And of course being shy and quiet doesn't help. There are people out there that do take advantage of my weaknesses but I need to stop them. Hopefully my T and psych doc can help me with this. Thank you

 

[SeanCharles]

@SeanGeo...Are you talking about disability benefits? I was thinking about applying too. Maybe I just can't handle work anymore.

Basically I bit the bullet and applied for medical (medicaid) as well as Aid to the Disabled (Cash benefit) and possibly food stamps! lol. The federal gov is having the same issue I do with me working! The problem is I can't afford to not pay bills while I initiate a fed disability case, the problem is I can't just give my employer 2 weeks! (That works against me as looking not disabled!) This whole system is darned if you do, darned if you don't!

---SeanGeo