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[Blutarg]

Your smileys are VERY descriptive! :lol: I agree that once we have fought through all the pain - and I'll add anguish to that - hopefully it will be worth it. Hopefully, too, those left that still love us are still around! (I speak for myself here.)

I sometimes think I will go crazy if I deal with this issue but then our family has made a joke out of it and we say that we are just going to get all my butterflies to fly in formation instead of all over the place.... Or we just make light of it and say I'm already mad so it won't be too different! :D But it is never meant maliciously and that's nice and I appreciate their understanding. :)

 

[WonderingWhy]

Your smileys are VERY descriptive! :lol: I agree that once we have fought through all the pain - and I'll add anguish to that - hopefully it will be worth it. Hopefully, too, those left that still love us are still around! (I speak for myself here.)

I sometimes think I will go crazy if I deal with this issue but then our family has made a joke out of it and we say that we are just going to get all my butterflies to fly in formation instead of all over the place.... Or we just make light of it and say I'm already mad so it won't be too different! :D But it is never meant maliciously and that's nice and I appreciate their understanding. :)

I do love my smilies:D

I agree about feeling like you will go crazy. That's no problem for me, if you hadn't noticed?:insane:
I've been there awhile! :lmao: Seriously though I really feel like the pain getting through it can kill me.:scream:
I'm not talking about suicide, I mean physically kill me.:eek: I don't know,:thinking: maybe I am crazy.

 

[Blutarg]

I don't think it's a case of being crazy, I think it's more about the whole thing being so taxing that it takes it's toll and takes alot out of you. It leaves you feeling so weak and drained. Am I right?

 

[WonderingWhy]

I don't think it's a case of being crazy, I think it's more about the whole thing being so taxing that it takes it's toll and takes alot out of you. It leaves you feeling so weak and drained. Am I right?

Well, definitely the stress and anxiety is very draining!

Also, the kidding around about being "already mad" is something I joke about also. Humor can be quite therapeutic.

 

[Abrasky]

You are very positive in what you say and I appreciate that. There is hope and each person holds something good within themselves no matter what bad has been done to them or what bad they may have done to others.

well said. Your strong when you hang onto something like thatLink Removed

 

[Hlost]

Well, definitely the stress and anxiety is very draining!

Also, the kidding around about being "already mad" is something I joke about also. Humor can be quite therapeutic.

It is something we surely do in my family (what I refer to as the 'good & crazy' side) does just to stay sane. We all have the "black humour"! My brother, husband, and son are my saving graces in this because I just have to let off steam :insane:with it :hot:. Without the laughter I could not make it. I remember the christmas before last I had 'lost it', moved into the bathroom, declared my independence :whistle:and just generally went over the edge. My husband was like, "OK..":cafe:, called the ER said we would be in soon, got my papers together, and when I was too weak to fight due to not eating, wrestled me up in the middle of the night and took me in. He warned security I was a fighter but they figure someone as little as me would be easy until the guy called me 'sweetie' :timebomb: I blew up! My husband shook his head and stepped back:no: knowing this was not going to go well, nobody calls me that, especially some condescending security cop.

Of course, I was horrified after they got my meds straight and was crying when husband came to see me the next day. The first thing he said was, "I knew it was all over for that guy the moment he called you 'sweetie', not a good move on his part but he was on his own!" and then he started laughing!! I love when he laughs, he doesn't do it much, so calm and middle of the road about everything so I couldn't help start to laugh too. He loves me and takes it all in stride! He periodically reenacts the "don't CALL me sweetie!" What are you going to do?! :lol:

 

[Blutarg]

A man like that is a treasure and makes you want to smile. I'm glad you have someone like him in your life :D
I have to feel compassion for the ER guy though, shame, he only meant well :faint:
All things said and done, I think we have humour in our make up for a reason and we have kids for a reason too :laughing:

 

[WonderingWhy]

HLost,

I have to say, it sure does sound like your hubby, is a keeper!:dance:

Thank you for sharing that! It was good to have the lift of a bit of a chuckle!!!:bounce::lmao:

 

[Hlost]

Well, I didn't mean to high-jack Blu's post. I get so out of control raging or something and in the end I never mean against my husband, it's flashbacks or something. It's embarrassing but what can you once it's out there??

Yeah, I feel for the guy :no: but I'm sure he won't soon be calling anyone 'Sweetie' for awhile :p.

 

[WonderingWhy]

Hlost :applause: You are just too funny1:lmao: