Just Turned 36 But Feel Like A Child

[sbump]

Thank you all

I like what you all have had to say. Nicolette I do laugh at myself somtimes but thank you for making me think its funny in a good way.

 

[ms spock]

Hi,

I have just turned 36 but feel like a child. There are days I just can not seem to want to go anywhere or be touched by anyone and then there are days I just want to be held and cry. I feel like I am going nuts.
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Dear sbump,

I relate to what you say.

I feel like a child. I turn 40 soon.

Some days I just want to be held and cry.

Some days - no one to come near me.

Felt like I was going nuts. The hypervigilance drives me crazy.

ms spock

 

[sbump]

Thank you for your comment Ms Spock.

I guess the hardest part for me right now with this is the fact that I have been told to grow up and no one seems to understand I wish I could. That some of my reactions to things I just can not help, they just happen.

I have a couple you I knew while I was growing up that is willing to hold me and to let me reacted the way I need to things but I just feel so embarrassed by all of this. The couple of times that I have triggered in front of them the have stepped into help and it seems to help me to calm down faster.

 

[ms spock]

Glad You Know Some Soothing People!

Thank you for your comment Ms Spock.

I guess the hardest part for me right now with this is the fact that I have been told to grow up and no one seems to understand I wish I could.

The couple of times that I have triggered in front of them the have stepped into help and it seems to help me to calm down faster.

It is hard to face lack of understanding from people who are essentially inexperienced in life and ptsd. This is so hard. No one expects a person without any legs to tap dance but we get the equivalent so often. I don't know what to say except that I feel for you. It is hard when you are triggered.

Of course actually being honoured and reassured and supported helps you to calm down faster most of the time. What lovely people. I hope you get to see them regularly. Could they speak to the non understanding people and explain their insight that allows such compassion and soothing towards you?

Just a thought and it might not be helpful at all,

Cheers,
ms spock

 

[sbump]

Wow
you made me luagh ms spock. I have never had it put that way before may I use that to help explain it.
The couple does step in and explain if they see someone say something. And I am honored to have them in my life.

 

[ms spock]

Laughing is Good!

I find a keen sense of humour is important for me in these situations.

I am glad I provided a giggle in your day.

ox

ms spock

 

[ms spock]

The couple does step in and explain if they see someone say something. And I am honored to have them in my life.

I am so glad that you have some people to witness and honour you.

They are special people.

ms spock