Ladies! tell me if you have anxiety problems around your time of month

[frogthroat]

Having a period makes me enraged and disgusted by everything especially physical touch. I sometimes take 3 showers a day during my monthly. I still feel like I stink like a deli counter regardless and I lose my appetite.

 

[Nessa7]

I have a very irregular cycle and only menstruate about three times a year. It makes up for the infrequency by having a few days of deep depression before I start. I also have very heavy periods, and I think that the blood loss makes me more susceptible to depression until the iron pills that I take year round can bring me back to normal.

I found a new gynecologist at a health fair thrown by a mental health organization that I want to give a try. I don't have any major complaints about the one that I see now, but I think I want to see someone that is more proactive.

 

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Having a period makes me enraged and disgusted by everything especially physical touch. I sometimes...

I used to do that too, I cut down to 2 but that constantly dirty feeling, ya I can never really get rid of it, I’ve thought of getting a diva cup, it seems like it would cut down on the icky.

 

[katz]

k so this one is mostly for women I think, unless of course you’ve noticed something similar in o...

Hi, Tracy. I saw your note and knew that I had to respond to you about this. I also get very, very strong feelings / memories during my period. I learned that they are due to the ......."red". I have very vivid memories from my child hood abuse with "red" down there. The color is what triggers my memories. The tightened muscles and soreness are also factors from my memories. I have talked to some medical doctors about it, and the state that your emotions are in during menstrual time is also a factor, even without a terrible past experience to fuel the thoughts and feelings.

 

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Hi, Tracy. I saw your note and knew that I had to respond to you about this. I also get very, very strong...

K idk why I think others have commented things of a similar vein but it just hit me so hard right now. I’m very dissociative with my rape, even now I feel like I’m not talking about myself, that girl is someone else, someone I push away and hide under others memories in my mind. I’m good at it. But what you said about blood. I was a virgin when I was raped, 17, and after it happened I pretended to have my period to explain the bleeding, I was bleeding quite a lot, so I wore a pad, I had to pretend everything was normal so I went bike riding with my family the next day, and I just remember excruciating pain. When I got a chance to I would lock myself I. The bathroom and cut myself, never did before, or raid the pantry and throw up. The next 5 years or so were oblivion and hell. My eating disorder got so bad I stopped getting my period, and I remember being so happy about it. I’ve never really thought about it. Because if I let that me back in, I don’t know if I would fall apart. Sry for the long post, but it just makes so much sense rn.

Hi, Tracy. I saw your note and knew that I had to respond to you about this. I also get very, very strong...

Well first of all, i want to let you know you’re not alone, and I know there’s nothing I can really say to your pain, I wish I could help everyone, I hope someday there are better laws in place to prevent these kinds of things, and much longer jail time for sex offenders, usually they’re out in a couple of months and do this kind of stuff again. I think things might be changing but we’ll have to see. Imagine all the people hurt by these monsters locked up for as long as murder sentence, Israel already has laws like that. I will never be who I could have been, it’s the lost potential that gets me really down. I need to start accepting where I’m at, I’m a f*cked up, driven person with a million health problems, not to mention my monthly cycle, a normal female experience is my personal hell for about two weeks of every month. I’m waiting to see a therapist for two years now, my application just got rejected because the doctor had too many patients. I have to wait for 2 years to see a neurologist to give me injections in my back so I can turn my head again and don’t kill myself because of the pain. It seems like ptsd is life sentence to me. I was hurt once, now my mind and body are hijacked. Im sorry for this long post, I mainly just wanted to get these thoughts out there. I hope someone an relate and feel less alone. We have to believe there is a better life out there. Keep fighting.

 

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The 3 days before my period I can't sleep at all and swing between anxiety to f*ck it all, I am am just kill myself. No amount of sleeping pills or anxiety meds help. I used to feel like it was the pay off for not getting bad cramps. I have seen dozens of Dr.s and had more vaginal ultrasounds looking for PCOS than I can count. My periods are very irregular so I can't predict or prepare for it.

This last year it got so much worse. Dr.s didn't listen, I got a referral to an OBGYN and all they did was put me on birth control. Lucky for me my psychiatrist has an intern that is a true angel. She got it. I told her that I can't guarantee my safety next time I am pms'ing. I finally got a referral to an endocrinologist. Not only do I have a pituitary tumor but estrogen dominance and low progesterone.

I urge every one her to demand a referral to an endocrinologist. PTSD can really screw with our hormones and obgyns just don't do the full level of testing that endocrinologists do. Adrinaline, cortisol, dhea and like a dozen more hormones that PTSD f*cks up in our bodies.

@tracy jones can you go to the e.r.? Sometimes they can get the ball rolling faster if you end up there quite a bit, at least in the u.s. My heart breaks for you.

 

[Rani G2]

’m a day or so away from my period and this always seems to happen whether I have a reason or not. I’m not talking about pms, I got that too, but this is more like a constant state of anxiety, basically all my symptoms are heightened like I’m a f*cking vampire or something. Any thoughts on this?

@tracy jones! Anxiety? Yes. Massive fears about irrational happenings. I am taking an ayurvedic supplement called "Ashwagandha" which is helping plus Yoga.

Hope you find something to calm down Tracyjones

 

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Ashwagandha

That should be on the must have supplement list for anyone with PTSD. it helps combat the effects of stress. awesome stuff imho

 

[RoadtoHappy]

K idk why I think others have commented things of a similar vein but it just hit me so hard right n...

Hi Tracy,

So very sorry to read your pain. But you are so not alone. Reading your post was like reading my own story, only difference is that I was 14. I’m now 30 and it still has such a traumatic effect. I bled for about 2 days after and had to pretend I just didn’t feel well so I could stay in bed for the first day. After that I had to pretend nothing happened and get on with things. As we all know though getting on with things doesn’t work for long. The week before is the worst for me. I get horrendous pain, flashbacks, and major fear over the blood. I’m on ponstan which helps for the pain but only mildly. T and I have discussed body memories. She is a firm believer the body remembers when we don’t allow our thoughts to! No Drug can mute that pain.

Recently I am trying to stop fighting it and go with the emotions. Keeping myself grounded and present in the moment. My T said something last week that has really stick with me, she said ‘this is your reality’ which has really had an impact on me in a positive way I think, that could change I’m due next week so the fear has started but I’m focusing on taking care and being kind to myself which is very hard for me.. even typing it is hard.

I wish you all the thoughts and support in the world and to know you are in no way alone in your suffering and pain.

 

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@tracy jones! Anxiety? Yes. Massive fears about irrational happenings. I am taking a...

I will definitely check it out, I’m a strong believer in natural medicine, I take high doses of curcumin which is based on the healing power of turmeric. I mean I think the lasting power of any kind of treatment is proof of its effectiveness. Wow the response to this post is just overwhelming, I definitely feel less alone and I hope everyone else does too.

 

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Hi Tracy,

So very sorry to read your pain. But you are so not alone. Reading your post was like readin...

That’s very insightful from your therapist, I find a lot of the medical profession doesn’t make the mind body connection, it’s underestimated or almost ridiculed, like if it doesn’t show up in blood work, you can’t be feeling it in your body. I want to hold everyone on here who’s been through this kind of hell. I want the monsters locked up for good. I think that’s my problem I look outside of myself and want to fix those problems. I want to insert a rumour quote here but I don’t want to get it wrong. Virtual hugs

 

[Deleted member 37868]

Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise so I am changing myself. -Rumi I gain so much strength from his words, for some reason I feel like he must of gone through a lot of pain in his life as well