Sufferer Leo Recently Diagnosed Ptsd

[Blue line]

I have recently been diagnosed with complex PTSD, severe depresson, and insomnia due to a work related incident 8 months ago. I'm still not quite sure why this incident has affected me because I have been in this profession for 15 years and seen just about everything. This was a near deadly force encounter with a 6-05,225 body builder on flakka and having a psychological meltdown. After all less lethal options didn't work, deadly force was my last resort. With pressure on the trigger and target in sights he dropped the large metal object he was comming at me with at the last second. 12 people later and he was detained. Fast foward a month after getting sick after almost every call, avoiding the places that reminded me of the incident, and all the other obvious signs, I went for help. A workers comp claim was started and I have been diagnosed by their doctor due to the work related incident. EMDR and typical ptsd meds and no improvement yet. Today, my duty weapon was stripped of me due to doctors orders of " no heavy machinery". Apparently they consider that heavy machinery. Anyone out there with any similar situations. Am I now wasted material, medical retirement, or is it possible to get better and go back to the career I love and have devoted myself to?

 

[Nevermore]

Hi @Blue line and welcome!
My situation isn't similar, but I just wantrd to say as to the question of why, I think if all just becomes system overload at some point!
Recovering is harder - it does take time and patience, but I personally have experienced a lot of improvement in myself.
I don't aim to be the way I once was as I think that was half the problem - not really knowing myself or my limits.
But it's led me down different pathways than I ever would have considered before and sometimes I'm even grateful for it all.
It's all about learning and changing.
I'm glad you found this site and wish you much healing!

 

[Lucycat]

Hi and Welcome to the forum.
I hope you find the information on here helpful and the people supportive - I know I have!
Regards, Lucy x

 

[ShodokanJenn]

It will be a fight, one in which you will figuratively have to crawl on your hands and knees to win... but I believe you can come back. I help train officers in their close-quarters combat, and with weapons evasion. I've seen them drop down on the ground shaking, listened to them as they cry, and seen them rise up. Leos, at least the good ones, are so strong. It's okay to be broken - that has nothing to do with strength. Keep fighting. And I hope you are able to get the help you need and deserve,

 

[Blue line]

Hi @Blue line and welcome!
My situation isn't similar, but I just wantrd to say as to...

That's a very good way of looking at things. Thanks for this tool.

 

[Blue line]

It will be a fight, one in which you will figuratively have to crawl on your hands and knees to win...

I have never let anything keep me down. Thanks for the words of encouragement and thank you for what you do!

 

[intothelight]

@Blue line Welcome and I hope you find this site helpful to your healing.

 

[Friday]

Welcome to the forums! :)

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :)

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome Blue Line... Lots of stuff in the archives and articles that may be assistive for you as you deal with the issues.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of people who feel similar and understand. There is a lot of advice and support to be found here :) I hope that this amazing community helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and learning a lot along the way. Hugs if you accept :hug:

 

[AlwaysWatchUr6-Smith]

I have recently been diagnosed with complex PTSD, severe depresson, and insomnia due to a work related...

I can fully relate to what you're going through!! I've only had it happen 3 times while on duty, and it literally makes you physically sick! You're not "wasted material" or anything else negative for that matter. Unfortunately the higher-up pencil jocks just say "it's part of the job" and leave us with the wolves. But I've been there, so if you ever need anything, give me a shout!!