Like i was never there...

[FauxLiz]

I stopped by my office today to drop off some paperwork with HR as my care team is recommending that I not return to work until I have time to sit out the waiting period and then return to finish the trauma program at River Oaks.

When I stopped to talk to the person filling in for me it was like a punch in the gut. Someone, I am guessing the fill in, has ordered new office signs with names and positions for the entire office staff, but not my office. When I stepped into my office all of my personal items had been removed from my desk and stacked up including my name plate. It was like I have been wiped away and never existed. I am terrified that this is an indicator of the attitudes/opinions of those that are higher up and my leave extension won't be approved I will just be terminated.

 

[EveHarrington]

Hugs.

 

[FauxLiz]

@EveHarrington thanks, it has just been a tough day all the way around, this at work, the two secondary diagnosis my care team put down on my paperwork which threw me even though we had talked about them before and lastly speaking to my dad and I asked him to come visit since I haven't seen him since last Feb and he said that he will be here in June for my son's graduation why did I want him to come up now? (I really need to stop torturing myself with my dad.)

 

[Freida]

That sucks. I'm so sorry.... I ran into something similar when I left -- it was like "Poof" and I wasn't even a memory - and I worked there 20+ years. So I'll throw this out -- you are not there because you are taking the time needed to get healthy. They may or may not fire you in the long run, or they may keep you on in limbo until you get back. Either way this is your time to have a chance to address your ptsd and come out stronger in the long run

 

[Supervixn]

So what if they did... focus on your health. Unfortunately that's how businesses work anyway isnt it? I'd be set in my mind to find another place when the time comes.

Good luck. Don't stress it. Be happy you have help. Focus on healing! :)