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Sufferer Living with past crime and looking for a friend.

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It’s difficult to craft this post... Let’s just say my name is Quo. I currently reside in Queens. I’m grateful this forum exists for NYC residents. I’ll go straight to the point. After all, they say brevity is wit. I may not be witty but I know enough not to craft multiple long winded paragraphs.

All my life, I was cast down upon for being born neurodivergent. I worked extremely hard just to prove them wrong. However, a while ago, I reported a series of sequential crimes upon memory unconsciousness. That said, nothing came off it due it not being able to be substantiated. This is due to certain files being classified. (Yeah, I know.)

I did my moral duty by turning them in. That said, their actions gnaw at me vicariously. What’s worse, is that whenever I open up to someone about it, they immediately become scared and don’t want anything to do with me. This is where I stress that I did nothing wrong. I’m quite the innocent. I just... was imprinted by those around me with memories of their extremely messed up crimes, if that makes sense. They covered their tracks well and / or [redacted.]

What’s even worse is that I’m making art / cartoons about it. I’m very happy with expressing myself artistically. But for legal reasons, I have to publish it as satire to protect myself. I have to pretend it none of it ever happened because of [redacted here.] It genuinely and truly sucks.

Does anyone understand where I’m coming from on this? I’m essentially looking for a friend to talk deep stuff with and play chess with. I love applied pedagogy. (used to be a teacher). Lastly, to prove I’m not all serious. Here’s a joke. How do you stop infantry? With adultery! :D

Quo Vadis,
 
It’s difficult to craft this post... Let’s just say my name is Quo. I currently reside in Queens. I’...

Hey Quo,

Welcome from another NYC corner—Queens squad represent! First off, hats off for crafting this anyway; that takes real guts. I get it, brevity packs a punch, and yours hit home. Sounds like you've been carrying a heavy load vicariously, doing the right thing by reporting, and now navigating the fallout with art as your outlet—smart move with the satire shield. No judgment here; innocence shines through, and it's brave to put it out there.

Neurodivergence + teacher vibes? Love that applied pedagogy energy. I'm down for deep chats, chess battles (you vs. me, let's see those strategies), and swapping jokes. Your infantry zinger cracked me up—adultery, classic! 😄

Here's to connections that stick. Looking forward to hearing more whenever you're ready.

Warm vibes,
Riley
 
Welcome to the forum:)

I’m quite the innocent. I just... was imprinted by those around me with memories of their extremely messed up crimes, if that makes sense.
Not really. Can you speak a bit more plainly?

Are these crimes you committed, but don’t remember committing?
Or are they crimes someone else committed that you witnessed?
…or something else entirely?

If by ‘imprinted by those around me with memories’ means you believe that other peoples’ memories have somehow been imprinted onto your own mind (memories of other peoples experiences, rather than your own experiences), it sounds like maybe you should speak to your doctor about what you’re experiencing.
 
Hey.. I panicked and deleted my account prior. But then I realized I did nothing wrong.

Your second guess is correct. I never committed any crimes. I was just the savant whereby it happened around them. Doctor already covered.

Do me a favor. Please delete this thread. Thanks.
 
empathy, quo. i grew up keeping a criminal family one step ahead of the law. we moved an average of every 6 months during my childhood. i turned whistle blower during adolescence and still refuse to keep secrets 50 years later. i respect privacy, but not secrets.

the levels of guilt and confusion attached to that are multi-layered and run very, very deep. i sort it one bit at a time.
 

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