Lonely....

[AzureMind]

I'm usually cool with being alone, (I've been alone so long I often don't even realize it...it's like breathing) but lately, I've been really feeling lonely....like "This Suxxxx" lonely.....like missing that "other half" of myself lonely....I wondered if I was reaching out because I was lonely, or maybe it was time to start to use that as motivation to avoid depression....I was told that "getting out of my head" would actually help with that....lol of course, someone who wasn't depressed said that :D So I'm trying to "get out of my head" and carry on with more extraverted thoughts (thinking pointed/directed at others more so than reflecting on myself) and activities while trying to deal with my emotions....I'd feel great if I could actually share some of this stuff with a partner, but there isn't anybody in my corner.....I don't feel like a screw up because of it, but I'd really feel ALOT better If I just had a PERSON in close physical proximity to show some kind of love....or maybe I just need to get laid? :roflmao: hope I'm not rusty....lol Anyway, You guys are all great on here, and DEFINITELY make a difference to me and my little world....Thanks Guys! ;)

 

[Reclusive]

LOL AzureMind! At first I was thinking you might have family to go to, but once I got to that last part it made me realize you want a partner instead. Time to open the door and start meeting new people! Indulge in any hobbies or pasttimes that you have - you'll meet like-minded people that way.

 

[AngelaMarie]

Yeah, I really can't help you with the getting laid part, or the partner part.:p However, I will answer your posts.;)

 

[Dorian]

I may not be in physical proximity and I do have a lot of people around me, but I have that feeling of being alone a lot. I say to myself a lot that "this suxxxxxx" lol. Like the others said above I will answer your posts and talk with ya. Maybe we can talk and not feel as lonely.

 

[AzureMind]

It's all good guys, I can handle the getting laid part....I hope I haven't forgotten how everything works?! lol :confused: ....actually, a hug by ANYBODY would be cool right now....just feeling sukky lately....

I may not be in physical proximity and I do have a lot of people around me, but I have that feeling of being alone a lot. I say to myself a lot that "this suxxxxxx" lol

Yup, that pretty much sums it up Dorian...lol I could be in a room full of people and still feel like a space case...:alien:

I just said that cuz I wanted to use the alien emoticon....I've finally done it...lol

Seriously though talking is working too Dorian....it beats the heck out of keeping it in, and doing something stupid and impulsive, honestly this depression has really warped my self-concept.....I sometimes have NO IDEA as to who I am....I've just about forgotten "WHO" I am.....it's insane....but I suppose not without reason being that I'm so out of it, and detached from everything lately.....:unsure:

 

[Brontie]

AzureMind,

Depression is crappy and the other crappy thing is people expecting you to ‘pull yourself together’ or if you have struggled with it a long time, it’s like, “Ain’t you done yet!?” The sad thing for some of us is that we have been struggling with it for a long time due to a lack of decent treatment in the beginning and it’s almost like it has become a part of our personality. I don’t think most of us recover from it. I think what we do is learn to live with it without allowing it to drive us insane.

Sounds to me like you need some nice coping tools.

 

[Reclusive]

I understand that feeling of not even knowing who you are. I know who I was, and who I want to be, but who I am now is a total stranger. Sometimes I feel like an invader in my own home or like on the Truman show when everything was staged just so....