SGT D! welcome aboard, sounds like you Abnvet & all have very similar back rounds, but all of us have the same feelings you've been going thru. I know I'm only reinerating what everyone above me has already said, but I am because its important. I was the same way, some days I still am, but it does get better. I'm a stage now were the things we did in Panama & Gulf War bother me slightly, but sometimes the memory of my buddies, & the things we did that we will never do together again, like have beer, these memories bother me more now then killing those I had to. I can start balling when I look at our re-union photos for a wedding/funeral 6 years ago. Thanks for serving, I'm praying for you, assuming your from Ft.Stewart so your Hunter Army air field/Ranger or mech, tuff stuff either way. They say time heals all wounds, I personally would like to kill the bastard who said that, because some wounds dont' heal, but try not to suppress them like I'm sure we all have here, I did & what a f*cking mess that made. I'm here for you brother