Madness, Insanity & The World Wide Web

[anthony]

You crack me up Rumors....

 

[Whitneys story]

It seems I have already lost

When Anthony takes it to exchange for their deception I would put all the cards on the table. The truth does hurt! You two run a large Internet entity! For their deceptive practice, what ace will they pop for a second one!

You do have the power to influence the masses about their products. Disgraceful some of the business tactics used by retailers. You might be surprised! Then you both win! Hugs, Whitney

 

[Whitneys story]

live off the system for the rest of your life.

Rumors, You forgot the best part, they get to keep the children and the per child $800+ food stamps per month.

 

[LhasaLover]

It's odd I see some people almost proud of their diagnosis and do nothing about their illness. Then they project on you if you are around them and get angry.

A diagnosis to me can be subjective in that no two people fit exactly the same mold.

PTSD is not an excuse for bad behavior. If you don't do something about PTSD, it most likely get worse.

I have had two other people in my life that claim to have been diagnosed with PTSD, neither have done anything to get better. They are the first to say, oh PTSD, I have that!

It's gotten to the point with one of my friends I just do not want to speak with anymore. She has PTSD and is always attempting to start arguments on the phone over nothing. I just don't call her back and then she gets angrier. Ultimately, the people who have PTSD and do nothing about it pay the ultimate price.

 

[nimkekaa]

then blame all their failings on everyone else. Nothing is their doing, in their control... PTSD did it.

This has always been something that as bothered me. I was a foster parent for years and never let my foster children get away with blaming everything on their parents or the system. I would tell them that police are not going to let them away with stealing or assult because there mom hit them with a shovel or their dad raped them. We are all responsible for our own actions. Some of my foster children have come back and thanked me for not letting them use their past as an excuse and one child in particular went from drugs and cutting to using much better coping strategies.

That said there are times when I think I am too hard on myself and need to remind myself that it is ok to give myself a break because of some of the things I went through. It's ok to take time for healing. (although that is looking at what needs to be done and doing the hard work and not just giving myself an excuse to lay around in bed all day and watch tv) Balance is the key for me right now.

People don't challenge enough things said here by members.

I find that maybe I'm not sure how to challenge someone while still allowing them their own opinion so I sometimes keep my mouth shut. That said, there have been a few things that have pushed my buttons and I have definately spoke my mind. Today I disagreed strongly to a post and said so.

I just had a conversation this morning with my husband on how I like how you (the man behind the forum) speak your mind on here and that everyone is entitled to their own opinion. I have felt your words were a little harsh sometimes but I definately feel better when I know where I stand with someone when then are brutely honest then having someone sugar coat things to me and then talk behind my back. I have a couple friends that I really admire and we have a brutely honest relationship. Saying it to my face and not behind my back is very important to me in a real friendship. Maybe that is why I hold back a little here as I don't have the same deepth of connection here with everyone.

I need to fart sooooo bad, but there is company in the house at present, and when leaving in the next 30 minutes, wow, am I gonna let rip.

Definately the laugh I needed today. Thank you.:D

 

[KP the nut]

I need to fart sooooo bad, but there is company in the house at present, and when leaving in the next 30 minutes, wow, am I gonna let rip.

KP has discovered the cause of the earthquake in China. I mean if they say about a butterfly flapping its wings in the Amazon forest ................

 

[StarChild]

KP has discovered the cause of the earthquake in China

Oh dear, I never thought, that a fart and its amazing conclusions would made my day....:woot::wideeyed: I'm really walking on new paths during my healing journey... :roflmao:

 

[anthony]

Been off the last couple of days. My dad had surgery on his back. My dad is 75, over-weight, which equals high risk for any surgery. It was major surgery... though yesterday it was done, a success, and as a result he will be able to walk just fine again without a walker or such assistance.

There was a calcium build-up on his spine that was screwing him over pretty much... now fixed. Now I'm starting to feel better and taking it easy on getting back into commitments here and elsewhere. Already starting to feel a little overwhelmed today, though taking it easy and breaking myself back in. Don't think my brain has fully recovered from it yet, as I got the message the day he was going into the hospital, so my brain had no time to prepare and settle. Get that I guess.

I wasn't as worried with my mothers heart surgery, as whilst its major, its quite un-invasive... they don't go cracking open chests nowadays as a way to do most things. If they did... my reaction would have been different to that one no doubt.

 

[KP the nut]

I don't want to teach Grandma to suck eggs (a UK saying), but, you know you need to take time to recover away from other stressors.

It is a major deal so allow time to process and recover.

 

[anthony]

I just hate PTSD some days... well... despise it is more accurate. I still feel like shit, better than a couple of days ago, but it's still pissing me off and my brain isn't functioning well. I don't like it... accept it... but don't like it nonetheless.

Had pizza last night, which was yummy, yet not something I've had in a long time. Well... we don't eat junk food pretty much, so it was great having it, but now I feel physically sick, which could be PTSD + the pizza, or just the pizza. I didn't feel physically sick yesterday, so I think the pizza has a lot to do with it, more than PTSD. I don't know which or how much though, as PTSD can often make me physically sick, and I have to get out and exercise to get through it, otherwise I would feel worse.

My anger is a slight issue at present... and I may take some valium before driving. It's only with driving, and I used to be that way and then got myself out of it, so maybe because I don't do it often is attributing to my behaviour reverting. Maybe some valium to chill me out before driving, so I relax a bit more with what others are doing, thus am less likely to punch someone or get myself worked up as a result. Interesting how you can fix an issue, not really do much of it over years, then the issue slowly comes back to bite you in the arse, having to fix it all over again.

The drama never ends... go figure! :rolleyes:

 

[Nicolette]

Maybe some valium to chill me out before driving, so I relax a bit more with what others are doing, thus am less likely to punch someone or get myself worked up as a result.

Good idea as I'm not liking being a passenger at the moment :unsure:

 

[Muzikluvr]

Anthony,

Thank you so much for creating this diary and posting what you're going through. I know they say "Misery loves company", but I think it's just really validating to see that you're struggling with the symptoms, accepting them, creatively solving them, and moving forward. Well, your whole process, whatever it is, however it adapts to a situation... it's validating, I guess, to see it unfold.

I often feel like I'm failing when I post some of my struggles, it's hard not to... especially when, like you say, I've already solved an issue and it comes back on me to be solved again. You are managing the symptoms, as am I, and the familiarity of what you're going through makes me feel a little more confident that I'm on the right track, that I can do this, that I'm worthy of the effort that myself and my loved ones put forth to keep me healthy... because I know you're worthy of it too. It's a no brainer that your life is necessary, meaningful; because it's meaningful to me. So, by association, the fact that we're experiencing similar struggles for similar reasons... I think, maybe my life is valuable because it's meaningful to others too. (Not to make it all about me, but... LOL)

Anyway, hang in there. You'll solve it again (would that be resolve? rofl, now I'm just cracking myself up!)
Take care,
Muz