It's horrible. Major Depressive Disorder and psychosis. It's taking hours away from my day. Some of my DID parts are 100% certain what we see and hear. They look up all the things that counts be the cause. But. No one believes us. Our medical doctor checked us and found nothing.
I've struggled with this for a year and a half at my age. 46. It's been determined that I don't have schizophrenia. Instead, I have major depressive disorder with psychosis brought on by high anxiety levels. Things at home aren't great, work has been a downward spiral and overwhelming, my other mental health diganoses are also worse. But as of right now, I hate the visuals and auditory hallucinations. I try like hell to hide it from everyone because it's embarrassing. I'm ashamed it happens and it's hell. I'm on an antipsychotic but it's not helping. But if I take a higher dose, I'm so tired and require morning naps therefore missed time at work.
My t is the only one who will talk about this with me, tries to remind me why it's happening and validates the experience. It helps knowing someone else knows and we're not alone. But it's not eliminating the symptoms. nor should we expect her to.
My post is about the increase in symptoms, the loneliness it brings and the energy consumption it takes to get through the day. And, we're tired of it. But we can't stop it either. It's like being in a constant loop. It's driving me to feel like I'm going insane and I think about my quality of life moving forward because we can't take it. Anyone else?
I've struggled with this for a year and a half at my age. 46. It's been determined that I don't have schizophrenia. Instead, I have major depressive disorder with psychosis brought on by high anxiety levels. Things at home aren't great, work has been a downward spiral and overwhelming, my other mental health diganoses are also worse. But as of right now, I hate the visuals and auditory hallucinations. I try like hell to hide it from everyone because it's embarrassing. I'm ashamed it happens and it's hell. I'm on an antipsychotic but it's not helping. But if I take a higher dose, I'm so tired and require morning naps therefore missed time at work.
My t is the only one who will talk about this with me, tries to remind me why it's happening and validates the experience. It helps knowing someone else knows and we're not alone. But it's not eliminating the symptoms. nor should we expect her to.
My post is about the increase in symptoms, the loneliness it brings and the energy consumption it takes to get through the day. And, we're tired of it. But we can't stop it either. It's like being in a constant loop. It's driving me to feel like I'm going insane and I think about my quality of life moving forward because we can't take it. Anyone else?
