Hello all,
I have recently started taking Mirtazapine and have found that I havent had a single dream which is nice and odd at the same time. I used to have such vivid dreams and really struggled to sleep because of this. I would find myself forcing myself to stay awak fearing that if I slept the dreas would come again.Thankfully they have stopped and I have been able to catch up on some much needed rest. In a way i miss the dreams as at least i was feeling and thinking something. I don't feel like I'm doing either at the moment.
The main problem I am finding with this drug is the weight gain. I have very negative views on my image on a good day and the idea of putting on weight really scares me. I have cut down my food intake drastically to avoid this which i know is the wrong thing to do but I can't think of an alternative. I have also had an increase in thoughts of self harming which worries me, they have gone from fleeting thoughts to more lingering and urges which i have managed to control in the past but am struggling to this time round. I have explained this to my gp and she said to keep going with the drug as it may settle down given some time. How much time do i give it? Surely I'm risking my safetly by carrying on?
I have recently been discharged from therapy and am on a waiting list for long term counselling, no idea how long that will take. I feel all of this has come at a bad time, coming off my medication and starting a new one with very little support, loss of my therapist and a gp that has no tollerance for negative views on these things.
This is a very lonely place I'm in. Any suggestions will be greatfully received.