Humans can't be trusted and are not worth interacting with.

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But compassion leads to stagnation. If you don't hold yourself accountable and strive to be better at your role your failing anyway? I don't understand.

The research shows that Self Compassion does the exact opposite. It doesn't lead to stagnation at all.

Given the trauma that you have experienced it is not surprising that you don't understand.

I know you are totally overwhelmed right now. So when things slow down have a look at Kristen Neff's website with free guided Self Compassion meditations.

Google or DuckDuckGo the term of "Self Compassion" and there's a lot of resources out there.