Missing Motivation

[Chem Lady]

i was just lying in bed, reading a novel. The main character indicates that she has time to spare so she cleaned her office. That's it! "Oh, I have some time. I'll just clean the office", and she does it! I remember when that was all it took to get myself to do anything at all. The last 12 years (since PTSD), every little thing I've done has been a mental, motivational battle. I try to explain to my husband how "everything is difficult", but I'm sure he can't grasp it. Getting out of my chair to put a cup on the counter requires lots of energy to motivate myself.
I really miss the days of not dreading every small action. Anyone else feel the same? How easy or difficult is it for you to "clean the office because you have a few moments"?

 

[Heather]

I know exactly how you feel. Most nights I dread going to bed cause that means I have to face another day. It takes so much energy just to function, form a thought, find the motivation, oh wait what motivation?

Lately its 2 steps forward 5steps back.

Life shouldn't have to be this hard.

I hope it gets easier for both of us :)

Take care

 

[Enaila]

I feel the same way as you. I used to be able to prioritize and get everything done, but now I don't even know where to start, begin to feel overwhelmed, and then do nothing. I then get mad at myself and am not kind to myself mentally.

 

[Friday]

I have an office???

;)

I'm still at the stage of keeping everything I own / use in a backpack.

I'll get back to the point of being able to manage whole rooms of stuff again, someday. Just haven't been there for awhile. My world is very small at present. If I can't carry it, I don't need it that badly.

I am currently attempting to add a footlocker to the list of "mine". <grin> Which would be kind of awesome! First I have to build it, however. Super easy. It's only been on my to-do list since March. So. About. To. Happen. Yeah baby! I'm totally rocking this.

 

[Enaila]

I have been wondering about eliminating some of the things in my life. Idk if I will have much choice here shortly as it is hard to keep up on the bills and now have huge parent loans I had taken out to help my son through college which are coming due.

 

[EveHarrington]

Motivation?

What's that?

 

[krazykristin]

i was just lying in bed, reading a novel. The main character indicates that she has time to spare so...

I've been dealing with this all day. Sometimes it's so paralyzing.

 

[Chem Lady]

Thanks for sharing everyone. It's through threads like this that I don't feel so alone in this PTSD world.
Although I'm so glad you shared, and I'm not alone, I'm sorry you all struggle with the lack of motivation.
Hugs to you all.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Yes! Motivation is HARD when in the past I was working 3 jobs and had a house that was spotless and organized and i look at my house today and im like "WTF happened?" I recently made a thread about it to hopefully gain some motivation. At least a little bit.

But yes, since ive been in therapy my motivation is on the decline where its a chore to just shower and get dressed. Quite depressing!

 

[Born2fightfire]

I understand completely and when I find the magic cure I'll let you know! Lmao

 

[Mina]

...and had a house that was spotless and organized and i look at my house today and im like "WTF happened?"

I wonder that very same thing :O_o: Used to commute about an hour each way daily, kept a beautiful townhouse, cooked a lot, did activities on the weekends...of course, that was all before PTSD...

This week, I've been trying something new. Since I can't find actual motivation, I've been looking around and then asking myself the question, "What would a normal adult do?" And then I do that. Wash the dishes, go through the mail, put away the random box of granola bars I left sitting on the counter :laugh: Small things, but I'm finding they add up. I've completely lost my routine since my dog died, so I'm asking myself that same question with regards to other things. It's 10pm...what would a normal adult do? Turns out the answer is NOT "decide now is a good time to eat a snack and clean my makeup brushes" it's "go to bed". Silly, perhaps, but it's been helpful!

 

[Deleted member 541]

@Mina Sorry to hear about your dog....