deborah l. boylan
Silver Member
Well, here I sit, another day in paradise. Yeah, right. Its been a few days since I checked the site and mostly thats because I am mood swinging. Saturday was good. Spent time swimming with my grandson and walking along the beach. It felt really good, like I could breath without the knot in my chest. By Sunday, different story. Spent the day in my "time out" room just wanting everyone to leave me alone. I could try to blame it on hearing about the 22 Seals that were killed this weekend in Afghanastan for the old pictures that I was looking through Saturday night, but the truth of the matter is that I don't know why the sudden change. Some days my mood can change moment to moment. I go from normal (whatever that is) to aggitated, to angry, to guilty, to sad, to all out depressed, then repeat. Sometimes the process is over a period of days and sometimes its all in the same day. Talk about feeling nuts! Right now I'm feeling totally unmotivated to do anything. Things are going pretty good here right now so why do I feel like the world is about to end? I should be happy, shouldn't I. I mean, it looks like I'm going to get to retire which means I don't have long left, the kids are doing well, hubby is getting better, so why do I feel so down? Why can't I just enjoy the moment? Ughhhhh!!!! This is driving me crazy and in my case, that's not a long drive! Sorry for the ramble but just needed to vent.