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littleoc
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She’s still alive, if anyone’s wondering. They’re going to transfer her over to a rehabilitation center in a couple of days. She’s sad she can’t come home. She misses her cat. And being allowed to walk to the bathroom by herself (which she wouldn’t be able to do at home, either, but let’s ignore that).
The social worker person helped us discount the medical bill from $154,000 down to $17,000. And that might become nothing with more discounts and government charity. My mom hasn’t been told this and I’m going to keep it that way.
My mom’s bills are now my bills. She has over 600$ a month of bills. I get paid 600$ a month. So. That’s cool, I guess. I’ll figure it out.
My grandma told me to tell her if I need anything. I’m a little worried about that. I don’t feel like getting into it.
Accidentally canceled my therapy appointments without meaning to. I forgot about them. I’m not being fined by the organization because I have never missed an appointment before and also have a “good excuse.”
With extra time to myself, before my mom returns... I might gut the house.
I’ve discovered that most of the hoard is just trash. Scottie helped me realize that it looks like my mom literally organized and rinsed off trash for my brothers to take out, but they never did. They refused to care for her.
I showed messages from my diary to my therapist (not in person and not by sharing links) and she located exactly where I got triggered. It turns out that something someone said to me in my trauma diary triggered me to the point of literally believing that my mom was trying to hurt me. That’s why the feelings stopped when I took a break from this website. So I’ve edited my goals to include my mother.
Don’t feel like you need to stay in this thread or anything, @joeylittle, but I just wanted to thank you for your advice to clean spaces until I’m comfortable. It was the most realistic advice — not that anyone was trying to hurt me or that they were responsible for my reactions or anything. (I’m pretty sure it was good advice anyway, just that I was triggered. Not their problem.) And it made me realize that my mom was overwhelmed. Sucks that it involved us teenagers, though. But whatever.
I’m glad she’s getting a lot of visitors at the hospital. Although I really wish it was my dad who had a stroke and heart attack. I bet he even wishes he’d have one for the attention he’d get. I wouldn’t visit him everyday like I do my mom. Maybe once when my grandparents asked me too, maybe not though. I don’t really like that guy.
The social worker person helped us discount the medical bill from $154,000 down to $17,000. And that might become nothing with more discounts and government charity. My mom hasn’t been told this and I’m going to keep it that way.
My mom’s bills are now my bills. She has over 600$ a month of bills. I get paid 600$ a month. So. That’s cool, I guess. I’ll figure it out.
My grandma told me to tell her if I need anything. I’m a little worried about that. I don’t feel like getting into it.
Accidentally canceled my therapy appointments without meaning to. I forgot about them. I’m not being fined by the organization because I have never missed an appointment before and also have a “good excuse.”
With extra time to myself, before my mom returns... I might gut the house.
I’ve discovered that most of the hoard is just trash. Scottie helped me realize that it looks like my mom literally organized and rinsed off trash for my brothers to take out, but they never did. They refused to care for her.
I showed messages from my diary to my therapist (not in person and not by sharing links) and she located exactly where I got triggered. It turns out that something someone said to me in my trauma diary triggered me to the point of literally believing that my mom was trying to hurt me. That’s why the feelings stopped when I took a break from this website. So I’ve edited my goals to include my mother.
Don’t feel like you need to stay in this thread or anything, @joeylittle, but I just wanted to thank you for your advice to clean spaces until I’m comfortable. It was the most realistic advice — not that anyone was trying to hurt me or that they were responsible for my reactions or anything. (I’m pretty sure it was good advice anyway, just that I was triggered. Not their problem.) And it made me realize that my mom was overwhelmed. Sucks that it involved us teenagers, though. But whatever.
I’m glad she’s getting a lot of visitors at the hospital. Although I really wish it was my dad who had a stroke and heart attack. I bet he even wishes he’d have one for the attention he’d get. I wouldn’t visit him everyday like I do my mom. Maybe once when my grandparents asked me too, maybe not though. I don’t really like that guy.
