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Childhood My abusers most recent letter to me

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BpinkJ

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Dear (he has my full name listed here) I am letter B my sister letter A and the first person I told of abuse is letter D. CH and CI are friends me and my sister had. DE is my older brother. JU is my abusers sister.

this is my last letter & this is my Good bye to you & {{{ I did everything in my power to help you get probation}}} & ( if you lie I will see you in about 30year's after you get out of prison.)

I want you to know I will always love you & keep all of you're Good & crazy memory's in my mind for ever.

as I will always think about you & the good times...

& that crazy bad night in on or about DEC. of 1998 or dec. of 1999? you're mom had me pinned down to big round red bed at 388Gibbs Street Akron, Ohio. the CRAZY NIGHT YOU & A RAPED ME you & A had me so mad at you girl's & you're mom & D over you both rapeing me.

I once heard if you love some one set them free & if they come back that person is yours for a life time & if they don't come back they were never yours in the first place.

I do love you & to me you're happy ness is more important.

then my happy ness in a relationship so be good to you're husband & don't cheat on him even when his dick is a lot smaller the a tick tack & looks like a pushed in elevator button & really Small.

well for me I am a big male whore who loves to be with a lot more then four or more 18teen year old girl's at one time but you know that.

so I am going to get me about ten 18teen year old to 26 year old girlfriend's when I get out of prison.

& have a big f*ck fest in my bed with them all one after the other f*cking every hole in till they all tap out & can't cum any more.

& you know I got no problems getting Chick's & i still look 26 years old so getting a lot of pussy comes at ease for me.

so if I can't be with you I will date & f*ck barely legal girl's of the ages of 18 teen & up to about 26 year's old all college girl's who want a rich sugar daddy to buy them car's & crazy shit.

& seeing how you & you're & A's friends all had crushes on me & almost any girl or lady I met wanted to be with me in more ways then one.

I will have no problems getting college girl's to f*ck & live with me rent free as we stay butt naked like nudest & f*ck & drink & get high on that top dollar drug cartel weed & cocaine un-cut & I will go back to work for the cartel's controlling the shipments in my new house the state of Ohio is going to pay for out of the money for my wrongful imprisonment.

I got no problems getting more pussy then you could shake you're husband's little baby dick at but you know that is true.

like what you husband has between his legs is very babyish in every f*cking way known to mankind.

& he can't f*ck a grasshopper with his little baby dick & possibly get it off no matter how hard he struggle's to get it off it just won't happen as the grasshopper looks back over her shoulder & Wonder if she will ever feel that little baby dick in her ever so dry pussy I bet he could not even get the grasshopper wet in less he dropped her in a puddle of water.

& just like every time he trys to f*ck you their is a lot pussy pounding madness with out any penetration past the pubic hair region in less you shave you're pubic hair all off so how could he possibly be you're kids daddy.

could you possibly even see his dick with out NASA telescopes focused right down on it ? I know B it may look big on NASA telescope pressed hard against the lens... (but when you look at it not through NASA telescope) ""it disappeared hay babe it's not a magic dick like he had told you that can disappeared & could be classified by the c.I.a. as dam near invisible to the naked eye when it's rock hard.

I know the state of Ohio classified you're husband dick as missing I seen THE PHOTO on a milk carton ONCE & I looked for it on the milk carton PHOTO for a few minutes but I could not see ANY THING TO EVER CLASSIFY AS MISSING SO ASK HIM HOW IN THE f*ck COULD ANY ONE CLASSIFY THAT LITTLE THING AS MISSING WHEN THEIR WAS NOTHING EVER THEIR IN THE FIRST PLACE.

B I am only setting you free from a GREAT real sex life with me & if you want you're husband it is almost like girl on girl sex for YOU AS you just both open you're legs & rub you're two LITTLE pussies together in till you cum you may have to get a dick in his ass HOLE BALL'S DEEP to get him to cum for you at least once in you short marriage.

TO SHOW YOU I GOT NO HARD FEELINGS AGAINST YOU'RE HUSBAND for Christmas I will buy him a 24inch BIG BLACK DICK STRAP ON to use on you so your sex life improves BY GREAT STANDARD'S please keep it out of his mouth he may lie & call that big black dick his BINKY but don't fight over who wants to take all of it first as he bends over in front of you shaking his fat gay ass up & down at you're face screaming what the f*ck are you waiting for just stick it in balls deep baby YOU KNOW HOW I LIKE IT. note if you Guy's keep that shit up it will be wore out by the time he can use it on you SO TRY TO HOLD HIM BACK FROM THE BIG BLACK DICK AT FIRST SIGHT HE MAY FALL IN LOVE WITH IT SO KEEP IT OUT OF HIS REACH & LOCK IT UP. B.

so it is one hell of a big surprise to me you even got kids with him because I heard he could not on his best day get his little baby dick to penetrate passed you're pussy lips to hit anything.

& you're Friend JR told me the only way he could get you wet was hook up a humidifier to you're panties or talk you in to sitting in to a bath tub full of warm water.

PS, you're friend J had told me she thinks you're husband has taken more dick's in his two holes more times then a guy porn star at one time in a porn movie called Chick's with Dick's she thought she seen him star in with his baby dick.

& j had told me : ( if as many Dick's has poked out of you're husband as what has went in to him ) {{''he would look like a f*cking porky pine.''}}

if that gay f*ck husband of yours has any problems with me I can't wait to get him on my visiting list have that bitch send me a letter so I can send him a visiting list a.s.a.p. & we can handle any issues in the visiting room we don't have to talk at all I know he can't fight he may just drop down to his knees & try to suck a mother f*cker straight off so I will step out of his way as he gets a hand full of two big black cock's '' as we talk '' he can get to suck them off.

B when you're f*cking Mr, baby dick you're husband.... I will have the ten way orgy's going on after I get out of prison & you're well come & join us IF YOU EVER WANT TO CUM AGAIN I bet you haven't cummed one time in you're whole marriage LIKE THE NIGHT YOU & A HAD RAPED ME so far & I am shocked to know you had kids WITH HIM YOU HAD CUMMED ABOUT 20 SOME TIME'S OR MORE RIDING ME I FELT YOU'RE IN SIDES GOING CRAZY THAT NIGHT KNOWING YOU'RE CUM COVERED MY DICK & BALL'S & RAN DOWN ON THE BED SHEET'S AS YOU MOANED MY NAME TELLING ME J I AM COMMING ON YOU ALL OVER YOU AS I YELLED FOR YOU TO STOP IT OR I WAS GOING TO BEAT YOU'RE ASS MAD THAT YOU & A HAD RAPED ME.

YOU SEE YOU'RE ALL GROWN UP NOW THE WAY I HAD WANTED YOU TO f*ck ME & YOU'RE A ADULT SO SEX & f*ckING IS NOT ISSUES FOR US NOW.... & YOU DON'T NEED TO RAPE ME BECAUSE I AM MORE THEN WILLING YOU TAKE YOU LONG PAST YOU'RE SEXUAL NEEDS OR LIMITATIONS ON CUMMING & PLEASURE OF EVERY KIND...! I bet you every last dollar I get from the state of Ohio that I can f*ck you ten hour's non stop in a day holding my cum back for you're pleasure's only... you're HUSBAND CAN'T EVER DO THAT & YOU KNOW I CAN DO IT BECAUSE YOU & A DID ME OVER FOUR HOUR'S TRYING YOU'RE BEST TO MAKE ME CUM IN YOU GIRL'S NON STOP THE NIGHT YOU GUY'S RAPED ME AS YOU'RE MOM HAD ME PINNED DOWN TO THE BED & LET YOU & A GET YOU'RE WAY WITH ME BY FORCE.... THIER FORCING ME THIS TIME BECAUSE IT LEGAL & YOU CAN ASK ME FOR IT & TAKE IT ALL & IF YOU DON'T WANT SEX WITH ME FOR HOUR'S THEN....
I am going to have sex with ten barely legal girl's 18teen all at once IN A GANG BANG f*ck FEST this is going to be great for me I got a lot of f*cking to do to make up for the last 17 (1/2) year's BEING locked up for all you're Guy's sex crimes.

if you remember the night you & A had raped me as you're mom had me pinned down to the bed drunk & high on her pain pill so she & D could make a black mail sex tape to try to stop me from reporting their crimes of murders & More.

{{& it took you & A like four or more hour's with my non stop rock hard dick trying everything to make it cum for you girls sucking it, jacking it off, f*cking you're tight little pussies with it & taken it up the ass you told the cops I put a pen up you're as in till you had screamed you were thing of my hard dick as you forced it in dry the night you had raped me with A you had screamed & said it hurt because you slammed down on it with all of you're body weight it went in over half way & you f*cked it dry in till you're ass hole got all wet in side then you road it taking a lot of it inside I remember that night of my rape clearly you see I can never be charged when I was the victim & you & A & you're mom were the true offender's}} the proof is seen on that black mail RAPE sex tape & that same black mail sex tape is proof I was the victim & not the offender as you're mom had me pinned down to the bed that is why the s.p.d. detective's had arrested her & they should have arrested you & A to on my rape & they should have charged you & A because you both RAPED ME REMEMBER THAT.... I am not really mad about it to day but you should have never did it when I told you & A to stop as you were pulling my shorts down & off to rape me seen on that black mail sex tape.

so when I say I am going to have a ten way orgy with ten 18teen year old girl's all at once you know for a fact I can do them all one after the other for hour's non stop holding back my cum I did it the night you & A raped me & a jury will get to see you & A in the act of my rape & I will request that the jury must watch every minute of that tape before they find you & A guilty of my rape if you lie about committing that crime because I am filing criminal charges on you both & you're mom if you lie any more.

{{{ the statements you made ON THAT BLACK MAIL RAPE was : '''' J if you won't give it to me then me & A ARE GOING TO TAKE IT FROM YOU...''''.

THE OTHER STATEMENT WAS FROM YOU & YOU SAID: MOM WHY DOES IT TAKE SO LONG FOR J TO CUM.... }}

note: if you & A were ever a victim of me then you would have known I could hold my cum back for hour's EVERY TIME I HAD SEX just to please my lover you do under stand that proves you had lied to the police about being a victim of Mr,B ( the manufacturing date on the out side blackmail tape) is the year we had lived at Street so that proved you had lied to police about ever having sex with me any of the year's before that MANUFACTURING DATE SEEN ON THE BLACKMAIL SEX TAPE time in on or about DEC, of 19-- or DEC, of 19-- REMEMBER YOU'RE STATEMENT'S YOU SAID BEFORE YOU HAD RAPED ME {YOU'RE OWN WORDS WERE } : (J IF YOU WON'T GIVE IT TO ME THEN ME & A ARE GOING TO TAKE IT FROM YOU.... SO THE PROBLEM IF I GOT A INDICTMENT IN THE YEARS OF ON OR ABOUT 19-- TO MAY --

SO THAT MENT YOU HAD LIED TO THE POLICE ABOUT ALL THE SEX CRIME'S THAT YOU & EVERYONE HAD CLAIMED WERE COMMITTED ON YOU OR A... FROM ON OR ABOUT 19-- TO MAY --

NOTE A HAD CLAIMED IN THAT SAME BLACKMAIL SEX TAPE OF MY RAPE MOM THIS IS MY FIRST TIME DOING ANYTHING...

SO THAT STATEMENT FROM A PROVED SHE HAD ALSO LIED TO POLICE ABOUT BEING A VICTIM IN ANY OF THEM YEAR'S...
. DETECTIVE'S HAD ARRESTED YOU'RE MOM OVER THIS BLACKMAIL SEX TAPE OF MY RAPE...}}}

SHE MADE SO THE DETECTIVE'S HAD KNOWN I WAS THE VICTIM BEING FRAMED AS THE CHIEF OF POLICE TOLD THE PRESS ABOUT THE DOZEN TAPES THE POLICE HAD FOUND THE LIED TO THE PRESS TO COVER UP THEY KNEW I WAS THE VICTIM & THE DETECTIVE'S HAD THE EVIDENCE TO PROVE I WAS THE VICTIM.

& YOU GUY'S GOT ME FALSELY INDICATED THE PROOF WAS SEEN IN THE BLACKMAIL SEX TAPE OF MY RAPE HAS PROVED IT ALL.

SO THE JURY WILL WANT TO WATCH IT ALL SEEING YOU'RE MOM'S FACE ON TAPE POINTING THE CAMCORDER AT THE BED ABOUT TWO HOURS BEFORE MY RAPE TOOK PLACE....

I WANT YOU TO KNOW IF YOU LIE ABOUT RAPEING ME OR FRAMING ME THAT TAPE WILL GET PLAYED IN FRONT OF YOU'RE FAMILY & HUSBAND & THAT TAPE WILL SEND YOU & A TO PRISON.

WHEN I HAD TOLD YOU I HAD PROTECTED YOU I REALLY DID SO YOU GOT A FEW PHONE CALLS TO MAKE TO TELL PEOPLE YOU HAD FRAMED ME & SO DID EVERYONE INVOLVED IN MY CASE.

IF YOU TELL ON D YOU'RE GETTING PROBATION.

BUT IF YOU LIE THE JURY IN YOU'RE SEX CASES WILL HERE FROM WITNESSES & THREE VICTIM'S & GET TO SEE YOU & A RAPEING ME FOR HOURS THINKING IT WAS SO FUNNY AS I YELLED THE WHOLE TIME TO STOP & TRIED TO FIGHT MY WAY FREE.

AS YOU ALL HAD ME PINNED DOWN TO THE BED THAT WAS RAPE & KIDNAPPING CRIMES NOT SO FUNNY NOW IS IT.

WHEN YOU & A WERE ON MY LEG'S EACH ONE AS YOU'RE MOM SAT ON MY CHEST WITH HER KNEES ON THE IN SIDE PARTS OF MY ARMS WITH HER HAND'S ON EACH OF MY WRIST MOVING FORWARD & BACK TO KEEP ME PINNED DOWN.

AS YOU & A TOOK TURNS SUCKING MY DICK & PUTTING MY DICK IN SIDE YOU GIRL'S & f*ckING IT AS YOU BOTH WERE RIDING ME ONE AT A TIME AS I HAD YELLED FOR YOU BOTH TO STOP IT NOW OR WHEN I GET YOU'RE MOM UP OFF OF ME I AM GOING TO BEAT YOU'RE ASSES... THEM CRIME'S YOU'RE MOM COMMITTED WAS KIDNAPPING & ACCESSORY TO RAPE FOR YOU GIRL'S AS YOU BOTH HAD RAPED ME ON THAT BED.

THAT BRINGS BACK MEMORY'S OF YOU'RE GUY'S CRIMES THE STATE OHIO COURT'S CAN & WILL PROVE THEIR RAPE CASES ON YOU ALL IF YOU DON'T COME CLEAN....

BUT I WANT YOU GUY'S TO LIE SO I CAN GET A GOOD LAUGH IN AT COURT AS THEY PUT THAT RAPE TAPE IN TO PLAY IT FOR THE JURY.

YOU GUY'S GOT ME MILLIONS SO THANK YOU & HAVE A GREAT LIFE AS I LIVE LIKE KING WITH TEN OR MORE 18TEEN YEAR OLD GIRL'S IN MY HOUSE WALKING AROUND BUTT NAKED f*ckING EACH OTHER & MY BIG DICK ALL DAY & NIGHT LONG WITH OUT YOU BABE I KNOW YOU LIKE CHICK'S TO AS YOU CAN COME OVER TO MY HOUSE ANY TIME TO TALK OF f*ck.

you see B I never got in to little girl's like you or A I like Chick's 18teen year's old & older NOT f*ckING LITTLE GIRL'S.


& seen in that rape black mail tape you're mom made for D :

( the statement's of proof had came right out of you're & A own mouths in that rape tape SO YOU CAN CALL YOU SELVES LIER'S CAN YOU ???

((that you had to take it from me )) & ((A had claimed it to be her first time ))

so that proves you & A & you're mom & D had all lied to three summit county law enforcement department's detective's about barker having sex with you or A in the year's of any dates before you & A had raped me on that big round red bed at .

so falsifying police department's detective's investigation's is a felony crime of the third degree times three felony crime's to add to you indictment OF rape & kidnapping are first degree felony's & the 300 nude Polaroid photographs are 300 More first degree felony's that carry a life sentence each.

so you & A better not lie to the Ohio attorney general he has the evidence boxes as proof with statements from me & Ci & Ch.

so you Guy's are so f*cked on you're f*cking crimes it's not funny to you but for me I love it because I am getting paid millions over all them crimes you Guy's had committed FRAMED ME ON.

& all the f*cking lies you Guy's made up TO TELL POLICE

about me their are over 126 lies told about everything in my case BY THE STATE OF OHIO WITNESSES.

the lies were only told to frame me up on crimes I never had committed.

by you or A the big lies were told to frame me by every state of Ohio witness involved in my summit county court case & the s.p.d. detective's knew I was the victim & tried to cover every thing up for everyone of the offender's not Right in the eyes of the ohio Justice system.

126 lies told by state of Ohio witnesses in total that can be proven in a open court hearing for a jury see on the year's of crimes dated on or about in my false indictment

PS, I can't wait in till you frame you're husband for rapeing you as soon as I get out of prison as you can get him out of the way.

I know as soon as you see me with some Young 18teen year old girl's you're going to want to fight them over me like you did J & j. because they wanted me to f*ck them you almost killed them over crazy shit remember you're sexualized jealousy every time they would look at me or want to talk to me or sit down by me it was like a act of war with you as you got mad & said stupid shit like they just want to f*ck you j

you know were going to see each other because my sister Ju is with you're cousin Bi & if you stop by you're going to want to talk or f*ck & I will have the family cook out's at my five million dollar estate so you're always welcome to my House & bring you're old man because we may need to put him at the front gate to suck off all s.p.d. gay cops I think he would good at that job or blow jobs for the Springfield Twp. police dept. they may hire him full time to sit under the chief of police desk & suck his dick all day long if he does a great job at my front gate.

as cops line up to see the show over us f*cking butt ass naked Right in front of every one on some balls deep pussy pounding madness shit.

if you up to a really good long f*cking any place any time any where in the place in world.

I would hold back ten hour's for a good pussy pounding madness non stop making you cum & cum & cum & cum & so on just to give you the longest f*ck of you're life time.

& the night you & A raped me as you're mom had pinned down to the bed I bet you a million dollar's no Guy's have ever held back over four hour's of straight up f*cking & sucking done by you & A against my free will seen in that black mail sex tape.

note : ( you two little Bitch's cummed so much rapeing me in the morning went I got up to go looking to beat you're asses my ass cheeks were stuck to the sheet dried to it & that dried up cum was stuck to the mattress & my ass cheeks were stuck together from you & A cumming so f*cking much on me I was not Happy about that or you brats rapeing me for hour's.

but I bet no Guy's have ever kept their dick that hard that long with out it going soft.

my dick was rock hard the whole time before you girl's came up their after you're mom had called you girl's up to rape me.

if you want to get f*cked four hours non stop get my address from my sister ju let her know you want to see me to f*ck & that will be our little secret.

PS, I wish the f.b.I. agents would get me & you & A & you're mom & D all in the same f*cking room & interrogate all on us at the same time hooked up on to a polygraph test so everyone of us all at the same time could never lie one time about any thing ever babe.

& let us all con front each other on everything I biggest issue is the rape I want you & A to admit to it in front of me even when they got the rape tape & show it to the court judge & jury I still want to her it from you because you had lied to the cops I need to her you both tell the Truth in front of me or to me for some type of closure.

& let detective's & f.b.I. agent's ask us all questions one at a time on a polygraph test so you can never lie on me again babe.

so they could get all of you're Guy's lying out of the way & prove everything you Guy's did (was to only rape me & frame me on you're Guy's sex crimes
& so on. )

god I would be so willing to do all that with you Guy's all in the same f*cking interrogation room all hooked up on polygraph's test at the same f*cking time to end you're Guy's lying for ever so everyone in the state of Ohio would know you & everyone had framed me & was going to prison if you lie about it again.

& I would want the spring field two. detective's on a polygraph's test with their police chief being questioned about knowing & covering up j . " was the f*cking victim that they had knowledge of being framed by everyone of the state of ohio witnesses or so called victims."

& why the s.p.d. police dept. had tried so hard to cover it up by hiding two child victims Mom & D & B & A

(you know Ci & Ch.) you're Guy's sex offensive victim's.

just because detective's had knowledge of them two victim's clearing Barker on every charge & over 300 sex crimes seen in them 300 nude Polaroid photographs that Mom & D got you four girl's to take of each other so they could frame me on you're four girl's sex crimes.

god I would love everyone of people involved in my Ohio court case to be in the same room hooked up on polygraph's test & I want the prosecutor miss on a polygraph test just because that crazy bitch had tried to cover up all of you're Guy's crimes & a long with the cops crimes for year's.

{{{so let's all get together & request the FBI & u.s. prosecuting attorney to get polygraph examinatores all at the same f*cking place to do polygraph on everyone all at the same time.}}}

(( & who ever lies get charge for five year's by the f.b.I. & maxed out on fed time in a Federal Court & sent to prison.))

so we can put a end to everything & all the lie's told about me just to frame me as a real victim : ( to look like the offender to the courts or police.)

note for the Springfield Twp. police & detective's to charge me on you're four girl's sex crimes having full knowledge I never did it...

what the dirty police did to me as a victim
it is no different then charging me for the john f, Kennedy murder a crime some one Else had committed knowingly it is the same fact of principal that the s.p.d. detectives had full knowledge I never took one of them 300 nude Polaroid photographs & knew who the true offender's were but still had charged me the victim they had full knowledge of being framed as a victim.

& s.p.d. detectives aided in crimes to help frame me as a framed up victim knowingly with out question knew the facts & truth that I never committed any of them crimes.

& had tried to hide two child sex offensive victims Ci & Ch of all of the true offender's.

just because them two other victim's Ci & Ch could point out their true four offender's to a Court judge or jury & tell everyone J had no involvement in any of them 300 sex crimes seen in them Polaroid photographs & J never ever had any involvement in them 300 sex crimes & told on B & A had lied to three summit county ohio law enforcement department detectives & claimed Barker took all them 300 nude Polaroid photographs of them & the two child victims & on ci & Ch could have cleared me by telling the court & jury they did not know why J had got framed on their sex crimes they all had committed...

so that was the reason the . police dept. detective's & their chief of police had tried so hard to cover it up they knew barker was the victim & Ci & Ch would have got all of the detective's charges & case throughen out of the court's.

because their statement's would have only proved J got framed on all the crimes he never committed the state of Ohio case would have been done as I walked out the court room as B, A, & Mom & D would have been arrested on framing the victim & on all their sex crimes just to frame their victim on a ton of bull shit J never did to them.

( & I would have became the state witness ) & all of the state of Ohio witnesses in my summit county court case would have been charged as the true offender's...

but the s.p.d. had tried their Best to cover it up so their going to prison with all the other people who they had violated their Rights to.

& I hope they get to cell with the same people they f*cked over in s.p.d. cases.

I know I can't be the only victim of them f*cking dirty s.p.d. cops or chief of police that tried to cover up his detective's crimes to save a Friend of a detective that is why D had walked on all of his sex crimes & more. but not for to much longer.

B it is him going to prison or you Guy's going to prison for the next 30year's or more so call the Ohio attorney general

if you don't come clean it will be you all going to prison for 30year's or more & I am going to make sure of it so f*cking try me on all of you're Guy's crimes.

DE. is going to prison to for his part in framing me for backing up you're Guy's lies as a state of Ohio witness every witness in my case is going to prison. ((( if any of you lie just one time about framing me )))

so I f*cking wish you Guy's got the Ball's to try to beat the Ohio justice system again their mad you Guy's played them in to looking very stupid at the prosecutor office.

knowing you Guy's had framed me.

& if you Deny it I want us all in the same room hooked up to polygraph test at the same time as we all talk & confronted each other & let detective's & f.b.I. agent's question us about the rape you & A had committed on me as you're mom had me pinned down to the bed & how you guys had all work together to frame me on sex crimes I never committed & how you all falsified three police dept. detective's investigation's just to frame me.

{{{ & the rape gans set up to happen at A school in the van with that adult man who worked at the c.v.s. in Springfield Twp. in may of 2000 he was a stock boy over the age of 18teen that worked at the . c,v,s, store & you're were 13 teen that is rape in Ohio if you wanted to f*ck him or not that is still 100% guilty of rape under ohio laws.

the state will pick up the rape case & I seen you f*cking him as gans was f*cking A on the swing as I pulled in to the parking lot & when I opened the van door you were on him still f*cking riding him as his dick went in & out of you're pussy I see it.

& I yelled at you really badly mad as hell at you.

let's take a polygraph test on all that to just to prove you got raped & D took you to the school parking lot to make sure you had got to f*ck him to fill his part of the deal on the lay out plan to rob that c.v.s. store... he had part in before you f*cked that adult man in my f*cking van.

I am filing the rape complaints for you & A with the state trooper's soon & everyone of us is going to get a polygraph test on everything I seen at the school & all the shit you guys had did to frame me on this Case.

you know I think it was the same day you're mom & D went down to the s.p.d. police dept. to file the complaints on me was the same day you & A were busted f*cking at the school as D was f*cking A on the swing & you were in the van f*cking a adult man you were 13teen & A was 12 year's old how in the f*ck did you not protect A from D all you had to do was tell me everything that went on between them & I would have reported it to the cops & handed everything over & told the detective's everything he had done to all of us..

none of this bull shit would have ever happened if you're mom kept this guy away from all of us..

(I know D was behind every crime he made happen to everyone....)

that ass hole is getting life in prison & you Guy's can report him or go down with him on everything 30 year's or more years is a lot of time in prison for his crimes he made happen B.

if I did not care about you or you're family you Guy's have been arrested the next morning after my rape & I would have went to the cops so you better bet you're pretty ass on the fact I had protected you Guy's on you're crimes for over 17(1/2) year's. as I took out on everything for you Guy's. love john PS, I still love & care about you Guy's but I reported all the crimes. it's not right I went down on everything I never did to you & A that is not fair to me B & you know that to.
from the victim j
 
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Dear (he has my full name listed here) I am letter B my sister letter A and the first person I told of abuse is letter D. CH and CI are friends me and my sister had. DE is my older brother. JU is my abusers sister.

This is all so so much, and I applaud your courage to post. Wishing you much strength and light for what you are going through. We are here. I am wondering--what can I do to help! Let me know...
 
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I could make it stop. I allow him to write this online account so I can show the parole boards and prove he is not better in his sick twisted mind. There are over a 100 and believe me I don't really read them. There are many that I don't open. Somehow in my mind I feel like I am punishing him by letting him write and not responding. Is that wrong of me? These letters actually got his parole denied in 2015. It sounds sick but as much as he hurt me and messed me up I am glad to know that I also have that effect on him. I was a scared child when he abused me. This is one thing that I have never been able to overcome is the past and letting go. The funny thing is I have blocked most of my childhood so they don't really get to me, but I love knowing that it gets to him which in turn makes me feel sick and twisted.

BTW my mother died in 2015 of a drug overdose and the D (the first person I told of my abuse, he was a family friend and he went to the cops and told me to tell everything to the cops tomorrow when they come to my school) passed away also. He doesn't know they are no longer alive. Also this letter is all made up BS. I know he is trying to get to me and wants me to respond but I won't. Each letter gets worse and he is trying to get a rise out of me, but I laugh inside knowing I am getting the rise out of him. Does that make me a bad person?
 
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BTW my mother died in 2015 of a drug overdose and the D (the first person I told of my abuse, he was a f...
No. You are not a bad person. It sounds you are seeking to take back the control that was taken from you . As long as he can stay in there and not hurt you, do what you need to do to keep him in there where he belongs and needs to rot. You didn't deserve the abuse.
 
@ShikibuZ Eve asked fair questions.

@BpinkJ No. You're not a bad person.
After reading that, it's pretty obvious he is. Wow.
He's right where he belongs, behind bars.
If you find it cathartic on some level to read that losers ramblings, do it.
Just remember you are not obliged to. For any reason.
 
@ShikibuZ Eve asked fair questions.


Perhaps. It is the manner in which they were asked. And we are not here to debate Eve.

You are not a bad person!

On top of that, this guy isn't out on parole because you were wise enough to keep it so that he can't hurt anyone else. I honour your courage.

I AGREE!!!
 
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To answer Eve's questions.... I have a hard time talking about my childhood and really I don't remember most of it. I have buried and blocked it all out. It is hard for me to talk about emotions and how I feel. This is the childhood abuse section and I thought by posting someone with a similar story may reach out. I don't want to let my abuser win, but really most days he does because I can't shake the anxiety. Honestly I do feel like I punish myself because I was the second oldest of 6 kids. I have always had guilt that it took me almost 6 years to finally tell someone and save my siblings. I feel like I didn't do enough fast enough. All of my siblings are in shambles too. Most are involved with the law. One has been committed multiple times because of suicide attempts. One was adopted but when he turned gay his adoptive family no longer wanted him. I have tons of guilt. All I had to do was throw myself at this man and he would leave my siblings alone. Some days I was tired and wanted to go outside and I knew what that meant for my siblings. I am ashamed.

Yes I know that was the mindset of an 8-13.5 year old....but even then I knew. There were many times I saved them too. When I look what this one person has done to my family it is horrible. One top of a drug addicted mother (OD and died in 2015) and my father in prison for a murder he didn't commit (he was finally proven innocent in 2013 and released, only to go to drugs and is back in prison) I look at my siblings and cry. I cry for what they should be and could have been. I cry that maybe I could have saved them sooner if I was strong enough. I see what they can still be now and it hurts. I was the one that always held it altogether and made something of myself. I had a good job that I walked out on last year due to panic attacks. I feel like I have let everyone down again. I now feel like I am no better....but for some reason I can't find the strength to cry for myself. I can't make myself better now like I used to be able to do and I don't know why.
 
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