Sufferer My Awkward Intro

[Berserker14]

I'm not sure how to start this out except to say I found this site while asking Google if I'm weird for sleeping with a stuffed animal at 36 years of age.
I was diagnosed with ptsd about 7 years ago, I do not have ptsd due to being in the military, so I am sure you can imagine why I struggle with it. My hell lasted ten years and with a few years break from hell I had several other traumatic experiences. Mostly I am haunted by the 10 year hell. I'm especially haunted while I sleep, which is why I try to avoid sleep. I am not on medication, I've been medication free for two years. I am a mother and currently on my second marriage which so far is going well. I look forward to seeing how helpful a forum of this capacity will be.
P.s. Google says I'm not the only 36 year old female in the world with a stuffed animal in her bed :)

 

[theotherside]

Welcome :)

 

[darrenS]

i wouldnt think anything abnormal of an adult like a stuffed toy , many people cuddle their pillows, whats the big deal , whatever gives you comfort.
Welcome to the forum and i hope you find the support and friendship to help you through

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I'm only a year younger. I have two..... I'm VERY particular about their fur. It MUST be a certain kind. Had the one since I was 18. It took me 14 years to find another with the same fur. Now I'm stalking eBay for a third.

I must have one to sleep. The oldest has been on many flights. In my carry on. I can't risk losing him. The younger will go on his first flight this weekend. I will probably take pics of him on the plane. It's sort of a joke as I did the same on my summer road trip.

I make you feel a lot more normal, huh?

Welcome.

 

[Berserker14]

This stuffed animal thing is new to me so I was just making sure it didn't put me in the "lost her mind" zone. I woke up from a nightmare last night and I was clutching it tightly and then felt weird about doing that while feeling mad about the nightmare.

 

[Berserker14]

To be honest, I caught myself cruising Amazon in search for another one. My current one is a red Fox, I'm looking to find him a wolf friend. (Even typing that made me feel weird lol)

 

[Nam]

Welcome. You are just a year younger than I. I'm a mother too. There's lots of us here that don't have combat ptsd.

Cuddle with whatever you wish. I am quite fond of a fake fur blanket. I love it up by my neck. It hides me.

 

[Berserker14]

Thank you all, tonight I will not feel weird or creepy for having a stuffed animal in my bed (my husband doesn't seem to mind either).

I threw in that I don't have military related ptsd because I guess I feel like I always have to say that. Most people instantly think only military vets can be diagnosed with ptsd. Have I mentioned how impressed I am that this website exists?

 

[illusionist]

I'm coming up for 50 and two years ago bought a golliwog which I'd always wanted as a kid.....finally got my wish. I do tend to sneak him in the bed when my partner is sleeping..I can't handle the jealous partner!

 

[Deleted member 1860]

My older cousin (by 5 years) still sleeps with her blankie. I think it used to be pink? Its now the ugliest grey color and so raggedy. She's had it since she was a toddler.

lol @richter scale, guys KNOW the stuffed animal stays and that the guy would go before he would go! I've had guys even ask me how he is doing. LMAO. Yes, I'm THAT attached. But, I'm firmly grounded in reality at the same time. Its an inner child thing, and I don't give a damn what anyone else thinks. Hence why I have no problem pulling him out on road trips or plane trips. So what if the person sitting next to me thinks I'm nuts? What's the worst that could happen? Oh, wait, I could end up on youtube.....uhm, that's not cool. I think da bear will stay in the bag this time. There's always an @sshole looking for attention everywhere you go. Sad how people are so ready to throw one another under the bus for 15 minutes of fame.....not even that, just so they can say they were the one who SAW xyz behavior in person. What is this world coming to....?

 

[illusionist]

Ah solara! You've just given me a great idea for my first nervous trip abroad....he's coming with me!. You will all probably see me rocking too and fro with my thumb in my mouth, clutching him, and shouting "mama"....on youtube.

Berserker.....it really is a great site isn't it? I hope you find it as helpful as I have.

 

[WillyKat]

When the going gets weird, the weird get going. (I have no idea what that means, but I do like the sound of it.)

Welcome to the forum!