My College Classes Start Today

[BLHutch]

I am inclined to agree with your husband as far as your history class is concerned. Like I said, I always give a disclaimer and I encourage my colleagues to do the same. Most don't though. If you are showing video clips, for example, of combat footage from WW2 or Vietnam and you have veterans in class, that might be something you should mention. To me it is common sense, but then again I suffer from PTSD so maybe I am just a little more sensitive about the issue.

As far as psychology goes, imagine having the professors who teach it wanting to "help" you when they find out a fellow faculty member has PTSD. Or better yet, asking you to come in and be a guest speaker! I'm pretty open about my PTSD, but only on my terms. I may talk about it with my students but that is only because they are mine. I don't want to talk to someone else's students!

I think you handled it just fine. I wish I could give you better advice. I once had a student tell me after class "Professor H, you're crazy. But you're the good kind of crazy!" I took that to be a compliment. I keep waiting for someone to say that on the Rate My Professor site.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

The differences between this semester and last spring semester are amazing. I would like to think that it is all my hard work towards my mental health but I think the Lithium is helping a lot too.

I can focus, talk to people, enjoy myself. I feel I can learn and manage everything without feeling like I will always break down at every moment. I am going to the school's bathrooms to actually go to the bathroom instead of going in there to cry.

I am still careful but I am so happy I am enjoying school! My therapist is right I do 'belong in college'.

 

[BLHutch]

I'm glad it is working out for you. Since I couldn't afford to be a professional college student, I found that teaching at the college is just as much fun as taking the classes, if not more so! I "belong in college" just like you do!

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I missed school today as I don't feel well.

I should be in my pop literature class right now. At first I was feeling really guilty for not being in my classes and my husband was trying to tell me that it was okay, that I am sick and it happens.

Now I just feel disappointed. I was looking forward to my classes today.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Oh and a stupid reason...It's raining today and I was looking forward to wearing my new rain boots to school. :bawling:

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I remember this time last year a woman committed suicide on my college campus in her car. I thought of that woman today and what an effect it had on me then because of the depression that was killing me then. I dropped my classes soon after, thinking college was one of those things I could never do.

This year though, despite thinking of that woman that wasn't heard, I am in a much much better mind set. I am so grateful. I feel no depression, anxiety every once in awhile but I can handle it.y therapist was proud when I decide to go back, my new pyschtrist worried and I notice she is keeping close eye on school like my therapist does while both are positive I noticed how interested she is in my grades. My therapist has known me longer so his knowledge of me and expections different.

I am grateful for the support from both of them. Grateful for the support from the forum. And grateful for lithium which is becoming my wonder drug. I am grateful I cut ties with my father who would only been negative and drug me down.

I got another 11 out of 10 today in English and handed in another quiz that I am almost positive of a 12 out of 10. My grade so far is over 100%. I feel so proud and so amazed; I am no longer the depressed aniexty ridden girl who barely passed high school. I am sure of myself and my abilities as a student. I really thought I was stupid, really thought I was worthless. Now I know I was overwhelmed and what I previously thought in grade school was expected. The foggness was from depression not stupidity. My not caring mind set from all the abuse and neglect I was facing. I did care but was already so broken and brainwashed. My parents didn't care and I am not saying that now as a teenager which i now know depression is often overlooked with the phrase "just a teenager".

I am worth something. I can prove it myself.

 

[rainy_daze]

:hug::happy: That's a wonderful post to read. I'm going to read it again (maybe the positivity will seep into my unconscious and motivate me on my course :p).

Edit: Someone died from suicide on my course too, and she was so young. It had an eerily similar response in me also Ayesha. I sort of freaked out and couldn't handle the news, even though I didn't know her, it was a shock when I was in a dark place. She crosses my mind now and again. I guess I'm the lucky one who survives the suicidal thoughts. Sad to say, but to stay on the positive note,

I would like your post more than once if I could. Well done.

 

[BLHutch]

I am worth something. I can prove it myself.

That is a great attitude to have. You are certainly worth something and you certainly are proving yourself!

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Depression is hitting really hard right now. I can't focus. I am throwing the towel. I am getting too old, to experienced and knowledgeable to fight knowing I need to speak and ask for help.

I have history mid-terms and a essay due Tuesday. I will probably be asking for more time on the essay. I know I will be able to do only one. I know I can do it at least one. I will probably need another week on the essay.

But for some reason I am unsure where to turn. My teacher (who will understand and like that I told her), the college who will want to know and my therapist who will probably type up a letter. But I am still searching for the words. My head is so very basic right now.

 

[BLHutch]

Hang in there, Ayesha. You can do it.

And Spring Break is right around the corner!

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

100% on my history mid-terms! :D And thankfully Spring break starts today. Tired out. :sleep:

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I have 100% or over that in all my classes. I am proud of myself and it's a great feeling, totally worth the extra work I have been putting in. I am not expecting my English essays to get 100% though but I would like an A.