I am new to this group. I was looking for support and understanding from being the spouse of the person who has PTSD. I feel so alone in this all. My husband was diagnosed 2 almost 3 years ago. He had an accident happen with his eyes and lost 90% of his vision. Needless to say this has been a huge life altering trauma. He was in the process of getting his PHD in molecular biology, was highly successful, very active, and independent. Now all of this has changed. It has been a roller coaster for me and my two young school age boys. I try to talk to family but they just think he is an a**hole and I should leave him at this point or overreact when he does anything because of all he has put me through. He was on meds for over a year but has stopped taking them. We have been going to a trauma therapist for over 2 years but for the last month won't go.
Most of the time he is angry, frustrated, depressed. Nothing I do is right. Everything is a problem and a fight. I am sad, disappointed, and tired. He constantly calls me horrible degrading names and puts me down. We are constantly arguing and bickering in front of my kids. He swears in front of them constantly. I worry about how this affects them. They deserve a healthy stable environment. I still love him very much but how can I continue to live like this? I know he is going through so much and I want to be there for him and support him but he pushes me away. He alienates everyone. He makes it so miserable because he is miserable. He can't deal and I don't know what to do. I have no peace, no joy on so many days. I miss the closeness and laughter we shared. I just wonder if anyone else is going through something similar? How can I help him? How can I continue in this relationship? I want a happy, loving, and kind partner in life and this trauma has stolen my husband. I grieve for the man I married 11 years ago. I appreciate and look forward to any advice, feedback, and support. Thanks for listening.
