Last night the thoughts came back. they just co me, I don't know why or how. It had to do with anger and my T. That's not important. What is important is HOW I dealt with it. I did some focused breathing, did two worksheets on SI, and journaled. I recognized I was feeling angry, tired, in pain, frustrated, hungry and then I tried to fix what I could. So I took ONE pain killer(hoping it would help with pain and sleep), went to the kit hen to eat something (which really helped because it removed me from my bedroom), and then I had a pretend conversation in my head with my T about what was upsetting with and when I vented in a non confrontational way all the yuck inside of me left and I was able to feel good. It was really amazing to go through that process. I just wanted to share.