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JadedGhost13
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bell, I will try to get into the studio. I promise. I have walked in there a few times, I just do not feel any creativity. Maybe I will go in there and at least turn on the TV and make myself stay in there and if I do then maybe I will want to at least touch my supplies. I totally understand what you are telling me. Now what my mind understands and what my proverbial inner twin conflicting me does may be two different things. Does that make sense?
I did rest last night. I did not drink any more after that first bottle. I took my meds and my mind fought hard for a few hours but eventually I was able to rest for about 5 hours.
Mercy, Thank you for sharing and doing so in a way that I can actually SEE what you are conveying. I sketched it out so I could really understand. Sometimes just imagining something does not work for me, I have to see it, and I was able to in how your wrote.
Today is a new day, I woke up with a wet pillow and face. I mustered the strength to the coffee pot and chose a light brew as my stomach feels like hamburger this morning. Not from anything I have ingested, I just think its sore from the "From the gut" screaming and deep crying I have done. Just six more days until I see the therapist and doctor.... I just HAVE to hold myself steady enough to get through these days.
Another question I have for anyone readying this thread....
Do you have house help? I had a cleaning service for years and when I was told to stop working, and our income level was cut in two because I was not bringing home money any longer I had to cut the service. BUT... I am not able to keep everything up on my own and I believe I am going to have to find it in the budget somewhere to bring the service back. I cannot live in filth, and I have really tried to force myself to do the tasks that need done. I just fall short of getting things done. In the past I was so particular about laundry, now it is a struggle to get through one full load a day. Thank God for a dishwasher or I am not sure the dishes would get done like they should. The normal stuff like scrubbing the bathroom and dusting and doing floors is not only hard because of my physical problems, but also impacted by my mental problems. Do any of you also find it hard to keep the chores up and have to have help?
I did rest last night. I did not drink any more after that first bottle. I took my meds and my mind fought hard for a few hours but eventually I was able to rest for about 5 hours.
Mercy, Thank you for sharing and doing so in a way that I can actually SEE what you are conveying. I sketched it out so I could really understand. Sometimes just imagining something does not work for me, I have to see it, and I was able to in how your wrote.
Today is a new day, I woke up with a wet pillow and face. I mustered the strength to the coffee pot and chose a light brew as my stomach feels like hamburger this morning. Not from anything I have ingested, I just think its sore from the "From the gut" screaming and deep crying I have done. Just six more days until I see the therapist and doctor.... I just HAVE to hold myself steady enough to get through these days.
Another question I have for anyone readying this thread....
Do you have house help? I had a cleaning service for years and when I was told to stop working, and our income level was cut in two because I was not bringing home money any longer I had to cut the service. BUT... I am not able to keep everything up on my own and I believe I am going to have to find it in the budget somewhere to bring the service back. I cannot live in filth, and I have really tried to force myself to do the tasks that need done. I just fall short of getting things done. In the past I was so particular about laundry, now it is a struggle to get through one full load a day. Thank God for a dishwasher or I am not sure the dishes would get done like they should. The normal stuff like scrubbing the bathroom and dusting and doing floors is not only hard because of my physical problems, but also impacted by my mental problems. Do any of you also find it hard to keep the chores up and have to have help?
