Near meltdowns, can't focus enough for course, + is homelessness ptsd a thing?

[shimmerz]

Completely agree with you LanaD. I am so very sorry this is happening to you.

 

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Thanks for your comment. I pay taxes into a system that's *supposed* to help me when I'm in need but they...

People having power over your living situation to mess up your plans and force you to do things can be extremely stressful. I had a bizarre/tragic roommate problem that was a big trigger and forced me to change everything immediately and caused me to sleep in my car for several months. Sleeping in a car wasn't bad at all for me outside of the weather, it was sort of like camping, it was that it's difficult to find a place to park to sleep where you won't get messed with. At one point cops were convinced I was part of heroine dealing problem and woke me up threatening to arrest me, in another some bully was yelling at me which turned into minor violence, fear about what actual heroine addicts around might do, etc

Anyway, the sleeping in car was in some ways great as it was like being out in nature all the time, I think it actually helped being outside so much. I imagine couch surfing has some positives, too. But it's like you aren't in control and people can come along and screw you up at any time and you might not necessarily know where you are going to sleep. It's like the cup someone mentioned is always full with some concern or another and it's overwhelming.

 

[LanaD]

People having power over your living situation to mess up your plans and force you to do things can b...

Oh, man, the anxiety! Seems that being in your car at least provided you with a tiny bit of safety in that you had a roof over your head, but then dealing with people harassing you like that.

I'm currently in a temporary home and do not know where I'll live next month yet, BUT I'm currently in a safe country so things are much less stressful. What is stressful is that the government back home is creating all sorts of problems for me while I'm away! It's horrible and it puts my anxiety into high gear.

 

[Finchlet2]

I wish I could give you sound advice mate but in the UK so rules are probably all skewiff and tbh homelessness is sill effecting my day to day activities and decision making despite being no longer homeless ( although mahoosively in debt and at risk of eviction ). Although I have been homeless for prolonged periods of time in the past(mostly on outskirts of towns where I could build willow benders or fashion an old caravan for me and the kids where there was a wood supply within a couple of miles to keep our burner stocked through the winter) but that was good life for us then and any hardship suffered that decade is over ridden by motherly joy. This winter(the second full winter after social services attained" joint "custody of my kids and the second in my home with my husband things became too much at home and I left with nowhere to go (as I've put so much into us the last three years I have no friends left apart from those I share with him). It was the coldest part of the winter and only for a few weeks on the streets and in unheated churches full of alcoholics but unlike previous years where I've thrived of fending for myself and loved ones this year I got sick pretty quick and had my coursework stolen in a night of twisted bullying along with my motivation to complete the course. My husband let me back home drifting around the place trying to tick all the boxes a fulfilling wife should displaced making decisions based on positions people will put me in if I do or don't do certain things waiting for the next bomb to explode displaced free falling being mauled by a pit of uninvited hands on the way down breathing heavy eyes peeled for something that makes sense, feels right,