New-brief History

[kimba]

Hi- Glad to find this site. Just restarted therapy due to a major anxiety attack, recurring ED, no feelings, and sleep issues which have me living on Unisom to get some. I've had many major losses and dramas over the last 2-3 years which apparently caught up with me. I come from an alcoholic home where there was physical and emotional abuse until my father died of cancer when I was 16. From ages 5 or 6 (I'm not sure exactly when it started as I don't remember everything) for a couple of years until we moved, I was sexually abused by a neighbor who was part of the family who "babysat" me and my only sibling, a younger sister. After I finally told my folks (figured distance meant the threat of harm to them was over) they said that i used my mouth to talk back, why didn't I use it to say something earlier? I can't even get angry at them because we were on food stamps and my dad had other issues as side problems of the drinking. My sister is not supportive and denies anything ever happening and I have no other family so I am pretty much alone with this. Have a long road ahead and not looking forward to it as I thought I was through with that. At least I know enough to restart therapy before anything more drastic happens. Thanks for "listening".