Hi I am new to this site. I suffer from PTSD. I may have been suffering from symptoms of PTSD for most of my life as per my phsycologist. I will begin at the beginning. I was adopted more than once before the time I was 4 years old. I do not remember much about this time but the doctor thinks this was traumatic enough that I would not remember it but it did affect my mental state. I was a quiet child who had trouble making friends and was picked on the whole time growing up. My father, God rest his soul, was verbally abusing towards me for most of my young days, but he was diagnosed in my twenties with manic depression which the doctors believed was why he treated me the way he did. When I was about 15 years old, I stood at the sink with a bottle of pills and was contemplating suicide because I felt I could