Undiagnosed New To Myptsd: Feeling Overwhelmed

[FreyaRose]

Hello @FreyaRose, that's great news.

Your GP might refer you to either a psychia...

Hi Rosewater, thank you for your kind words of support. It really makes a difference to know I'm not alone with this. I don't have Bupa cover and am not in the London area, but my GP is very supportive and so I'm feeling relieved that I've got his full support and hopeful that things are moving in the right direction. I've felt so isolated, not understanding why I felt so terrified, and giving myself a hard time for not being able to "manage Life better". It feels like there's some light appearing at the end of the tunnel, insofar as I understand a bit more why things have felt so internally intense. I've honestly thought I was " lacking" in some way, a failure personally, because I haven't understood my responses to triggers & why they're so terrifying.

 

[WillyKat]

@FreyaRose,

We tend to put a lot of pressure on ourselves to, as you put it, 'manage Life better'. We can spend years and even decades under that pressure, which if you think about it, is another form of "just get over it." But making progress against PTSD (my opinion) doesn't happen quickly. There's no mighty swipe of a sword that can defeat the dragon. I think our culture pushes us into believing fixes can be quick.

To heal from this crap, it takes not only finding a good path (there are many good ones, just as there are many bad ones), and being willing to endure the baby steps and crawling. Think in terms of small, attainable goals instead of huge leaps.

Strive for meaning and purpose along the way, rather than what the 13 channels of shit on the TV tell us about happiness. Things can be fulfilling and meaningful without being "happy".

Just reading your posts gives me the impression that you have great healing capacity. I see much wisdom in your words. You'll need it. Keep us posted.