Other New To The Forum, Seeking An Open Door.

[Velvettte]

I've been through various therapies and groups over the past five years and was hospitalized for a week as well. I now take cymbalta where I used to take trazadone, and clonazapam, and narcotics for chronic back pain. Now I do not work and receive disability pension. The past month I'm realizing that I need more therapy. I'm broken inside. I can't have sexual relations with my husband since it sickens me to feel pleasure. I too hate the word arousal! Even to type it! I'm hurting so much and it keeps me from being the person I want to be and living the life I want to live! I want help! I'm desperate!

Hi Amber, I really appreciated your openness in response to my post, you sound pretty hurt right now. Here's hoping that this forum is a great source of support for you - . Kind regards, Velvettte

 

[ivyrose]

Hi Velvette,

Welcome :) I'm fairly new too, but regarding your interest here, I thought I would tell you that for me...I tend to tell everyone my diagnosis. Like I can't keep my mouth shut. But I was only recently diagnosed. My husband knows everything, but my son is only 5, so he only knows that "something very bad happened to mommy when she was a kid and that's why shes sad a lot" or "sick" or "crying" etc. I'm sure as he gets older we will explain more, but not now. My mother also has ptsd, and had it as I was growing up, although it wasn't diagnosed until recent years. I feel really bad for my son because I can tell that he is aware that I am not doing my job as a parent. :(

 

[a3a2]

Before being diagnosed, hiding my symptoms was nearly a full time job. I think my (now) husband had no idea what he was getting into when he married me. But it wasn't long before I had to confess that driving terrified me. I couldn't go anywhere unfamiliar to me, and seeing my family made me loopy for months. I couldn't explain the flashbacks...I would start sprinting only to wonder a few moments later what I was doing and why I was completely out of my mind with fear.

After the diagnosis, well, after I finally accepted the diagnosis, I was able to be far more open about it to my husband, friends and to my teens.

Welcome to the forum.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Nicolette made an excellent post in the supporter forum to all sufferers pretty much saying that sufferers are welcome to post over there but we are guests in their house so to speak and must respect them. On the same token, you are a guest in both the supporter and sufferer forums and I hope that you respect that.

 

[siren]

I don't see what the problem is here with a person wanting to know more about how people handle their PTSD. Anyone who cares enough to research this and possibly help others should be welcome IMHO (in my humble/honest opinion). Now to the OP's question - the only family I discuss this with is my husband. No other family even knows I might have it, and I don't plan on telling them any time soon. I love 2,000 miles away and I don't talk to them enough that it might be an issue.

 

[KP the nut]

now to the OP's

Please explain the use of OP an in future make it clear, many thanks.

 

[Velvettte]

Hi Ivyrose, you said:

I feel really bad for my son because I can tell that he is aware that I am not doing my job as a parent.

I bet your son just knows you as his parent, without any such judgement about whether you are doing a good job at it - we (parents) are always more harsh on ourselves than anyone else. Thank you for sharing your perspective as well - I recently met another person who is very open about their diagnosis, including to their 11year old son. Age appropriate info only, but still open. By the sounds of it, each person chooses to the level of disclosure they are comfortable with.

Hi ScaredOfLonely, you said:

On the same token, you are a guest in both the supporter and sufferer forums and I hope that you respect that.

, I agree absolutely.

Hi Siren, you said:

Now to the OP's question - the only family I discuss this with is my husband.

I am assuming that OP means "original poster" - thank you for sharing :) You are right - I really do care about this topic/condition. Growing up with a parent who dealt with a mental illness affected me. Listening to my clients relate their behaviours with their families makes me want to know more about it, in order to help them come to terms/accept/change the way PTSD is experienced by the family as a whole.

So again, I am really grateful for the opinions and perspectives shared. It has helped clarify some things for me.
Regards
Velvettte

 

[Lost Pup]

Hi Velvette,

I'm not a long-time or very active member of this forum. I only signed up last week looking for quick feedback to a triggering event and subsequent episode that comes several years after the majority of work I did to heal.

I would, though, like to chime in a word of caution. You seem perfectly friendly and reasonable and, while you've made clear your intentions are good and let us know you work primarily with veterans, the population here is much more diverse and it may still be worth contemplating that many people dealing with childhood abuse are likely to be triggered by or otherwise suspicious of having a therapist or clinician in the mix. I can only speak for myself and friends but I can tell you many of us have, at various points in our healing, felt as though the therapist relationship activates the parent/child or abuser/child relationship. Just food for thought.

Best wishes.

 

[Velvettte]

Thanks for that Lost Pup, will take it on board. :)
Regards
Velvettte

 

[JustBe]

Welcome. You may find the Combat PTSD site more helpful.