Newbie In The Middle Of First Anniversary Trauma

[ElizabethHealing]

I am so glad I found this site. Although I have a long standing history of abuse I never realized my symptoms were following a pattern and I held it together ok. Last year this time I had an event that brought everything from the wood work. I have been to a great trauma hospital and have been doing great. I knew the day was coming and made plans and then everything seems to be falling a part. It feels like a failure bc I have worked so hard. Im exhausted, not sleeping well and having memories. Im pushing myself and avoiding at the same time, babbling because Im nervous and want others to think Im happy and feeling the shame again. My C is out of the country for 3 weeks. We prepared for this and my goal was to take care of myself. I just want to sleep.
I would like to know how others have coped with this situation. Support welcome....Thank you!

 

[Lucycat]

Hi

Sorry you are feeling so bad!

Welcome to the forum. Glad you found us.
You are not a failure. You have a strength you never knew. You are a survivor! Hang in there it will get better. Just be kind to yourself and take it slowly.

Regards
Lucy x

 

[Brontie]

Welcome to the forum!

 

[The Albatross]

Glad you reached out for some support while your C is away... anniversaries ... I don't do as well as I'd like to. But I muddle through and do the best I can. I guess it's getting easier as time passes and I practice. You made plans and are making the effort, you deserve kudos and a hug for that ((((if you accept hugs))). Welcome!

 

[cherryblossom]

Hello Elizabeth

Welcome to the forum. Sorry to hear you are having a rough time.

I used to have a really rough time around my trauma anniversary, until I read this - [DLMURL]http://www.ptsdforum.org/c/threads/trauma-anniversaries-fact-vs-myth.13881/[/DLMURL]

It may, or may not help you, but for me, it put a lot of things into perspective

Regards
Cherryblossom