Sufferer Newbie, With Trust Issues

[Mercy]

Dear Beetle, I am so glad to have you on the forum. You are so welcome here. Even your struggles, should you choose to post them, will help others with their own troubles. You have years of experience which you will find appropriate to post on other people's posts as you browse around.

WELCOME.

 

[Tinyflame]

Welcome beetle. :)

 

[DifferentMe]

Beetle,

I am fighting the same fight as you. I can not tell you it will be easy or I am having success at dealing with it. We are all different, what works for one may not for another. Just know you have support. When I came here I needed to talk to someone, but I had no one cause I had forced them all away. Writing my feelings down, finding out others were like me, has helped me want to try to face my issues. I take everything slowly, one day at a time. Cliche I know, but it is true.

Trusting anyone is hard, and I mean total trust. Now that I know why I am like this, and the reasons, I am trying to change. I know I can trust certain people, it is just finding the courage to do it. When you find those people have betrayed your trust, lied to you, it makes it even worse. You want to crawl into your world even deeper. I know. Please don't. Please keep fighting, and we are all here, and while you may not know us, we all can relate because we all have our own issues.

This site has be extremely helpful to me for those reasons. I can come here when I am really feeling down, read other's stories, post my own, get advice, and it comforts me. So, welcome to the group.

Be well my friend.

 

[Beetle]

Thank you all, I was not expecting such a warm and welcoming response.

Thank you all for your honesty, particularly the comments on OCD tendencies and trust. I feel you understand even though I have not said very much.

I can relate to 'uncovering new memories' this has happened to me recently and triggered off my OCD and other safety behaviours, along with the usual self sabotaging voices. I do not like myself much just now and this is when I need to work hardest of all as it is when I am at my most destructive.

I am still trying to find my way around the site and where to post about certain issues. I cannot live with getting things wrong so I cannot post information about myself in the wrong place as it will cause me to become even more distressed, which I am trying to avoid.

 

[d-art13]

Welcome to the forum Beetle!!