Sufferer Newly diagnosed, abilify, and seeking advice, im pretty crazy, open to questions

[Mellieollie]

Hi I am 24 years old a female college student who has just been diagnosed with chronic PTSD. I was pres...

This brought tears to my eyes...i don t want to offend by no means, but have you seeked Jesus's help?...best wishes to you...please try to learn from all the bad things and move forward....today is a new day...i pray you can find your happiness...it will not be easy but with Jesus by your side you can learn...good luck...

 

[Scarlet13]

So I was told I had PTSD really bad by my college psychiatrist. I don't know how I felt about that.
I cannot take any meds accept a low, low dose of klonopin and that is only when I really, really need it.
My story is more rare for psych meds. I have heard far more stories of meds helping.
Also, don't under estimate the power of therapy. DBT is amazing for getting your life back.
Marsha Linehan is the creator of DBT.
Before she created this widely successful therapy, she was in a mental ward. A mental ward with no windows.
She got out and then created DBT.
So, my point is that you can use ALL the shit you have been through as a strength, as a motivator.
You have a lot of rage.
Recognize that there is actually a lot of strength in anger.
They have not beaten you down.
You are a survivor.
Find the strength in your anger.
Learn how to manage that anger though so you do not hurt others.
I wish I could feel anger. That is one of the emotions I struggle to feel.
Kick boxing is great. Do more of that. Also, check out yoga.

 

[Deleted member 45777]

I'm so sick that I have nothing nice to say.

So ima smoke and do homework today now.

I kinda fantasized about raping women last night tho.

You can imagine how tortured a girl must be to enjoy the thought of raping a woman.

I mean like I really, really enjoy the thought.

Hope I get better soon :)

But my therapist said she heard that before too lol
Women wanting to take women.
I just wanna chop men into peices or destroy their health somehow.

Just being honest :)
I f*cking hate men :)

 

[Deleted member 45777]

I even enjoy the thought of me being raped...

Weird right?

I'm sorry to any rape victim that may read that

I'm just really really ummm yea CPTSD monster here yeahhhh

I'm just taking this "CPTSD" diagnosis really hard....

I want to blame the world

I want revenge now......

I'm so f*cking angry

So.

I can't describe it.

It' debilitating rage.

I can honestly look like a warewolf transforming from human state to wolf state lol

Something like a movie I'm too much

Oddly I only do it in private

Like I have never had a moment in public

I only do it in private or with my doc or therapist or my ex baby killing SOB

Like I don't do it for attention

But the screaming feels so good in private

I'm a bomb that explodes in private

 

[Deleted member 45777]

Ironically....

I'm really pretty...

I do social media modeling

So I'm like beauty and the beast bwahahah

All in one bwahahah

People envy my beauty all the time everyday

I envy their sanity

Over 100 men have had their way with me

Now I want my way with them.

Do u know what it's like to not remember all the faces who entered u

To not be able to name then all

Faces blur

The feeling of a dick inside u becomes a raw throbbing muscle memory

Muscle memory will make u turn

Over 100 men used me

Does that sound familiar

I don't know my own number

 

[Suzetig]

It sounds like it's important to you that you have the worst ever trauma, the most awful PTSD, the most shocking thoughts. I get that you've had terrible things happen to you and that you're trying to make sense of it all.

Please read around the forums, you'll read all kinds of stories from people who are kicking PTSD ass every single day. Your way through this is nothing more or less than hard work. For some people that work actually is quite quick, for others it's a life long project and you have no way of knowing how it'll go for you.

Instead of trying to convince people you're in a bad way, demanding answers to questions that can't be answered, get to know the forum and it's people.

 

[Deleted member 45777]

I wish u would say that to me face :)

And no I just have told the truth

Get the f*ck over that

I haven' said 1 f*cking thing that wasn't true

I really do think this way
I really would f*cking rub ur face in cement for what u just said
I really do want to rip your father' eyes out for dripping u out of his nutt sack
I really have been through a lot

I really do think it' pathetic what some people call trauma

I really do wish I could get my hands on u now :)

Your the one person to attack me

Lmao wow

 

[Deleted member 45777]

I'm not demanding shit other than for u to shut the f*ck up and mind your own business if that is how u feel :)

No body f*cking asked u

 

[Deleted member 45777]

Ok so you can attack me but I can't attack you back?

 

[Deleted member 45777]

Wow what is the point of this f*cking site then

 

[Deleted member 45777]

f*ck this site

 

[joeylittle]

And, we're done.