Sufferer Nice To See That Im Not Alone, In The Trenches...hi All.

[HOPEFULHEART82]

Hey everyone,

I'm newly diagnosed (this year), but a lifelong sufferer of Complex-ptsd. for years I turned off all emotive reactions to stress, and thought I had a handle on my life and my coping skills, until the last 6 years, I dated a couple of wrong men, most notably a borderline, and have found myself wrung out. I feel like I am not my life anymore, everything that I thought I controlled, the progress that I had made, is now all scattered about my feet.

I finally started dating and am in a good relationship, if you don't count the parts where I push him away, and freak out, ruminate, lose sleep over, and second guess everything.

I'm very grateful to find others like me, it's been lonely and bleak out here. Maybe now I can help someone and someone can help me on this journey that we all share. I'm an open book, so please by all means reach out.

I have a hopeful heart that ill make it.

 

[RussH]

Hi Hopefulheart, welcome to the forum. You will find a lot of people, friends, here. We are all taking this journey together, so feel free to join us in our travels.

 

[HOPEFULHEART82]

Thankyou Russ, I'm navigating now. And look forward to taking a rest for once, from being so confused, alone and scattered.

 

[RussH]

hopeful there is a lot of good information here on the fourm, and lots of people you can communicate with, to offer you support. You said you have recently been diagnosed; are you in therapy? If not, you might want to find a good therapist to help you with getting better.

 

[mamachick]

Welcome HOPEFULHEART,
I think dating the wrong people can cause such an exacerbation of symptoms. It is really important to surround ourselves with people who are non abusive and reasonable. For me, having ptsd , dealing with people who are into mind games makes my symptoms so much worse, to the point of being hopeless. I should have chose that name probably. I am glad that you are hopeful, I think it is an attitude needed to really get better. Glad to hear that you have a supportive person in your life.

 

[HOPEFULHEART82]

@RussH I currently have a wonderful therapist, who is trained in trauma and abuse therapy. I am very happy to have found her. @brat17 I can fully agree, unfortunately it wasnt until recently that I started to get to know myself in this newfound light and realize that I had to get far away from him. Now Im here starting all over again, but happy to be free. Im just trying my hardest not to lose the one I have because of the damage done by those who came before him.

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to MyPTSD forum! :)