No Longer Wanting The "good Days"

[frozen]

I'm sure I'm not the only who feels this at least once in awhile, but after having a couple really, really good days, a bad day comes and I am crashing quick and hard.

I'd prefer to just stay in the bad day zone, because when you go from good to bad, the bad is so much worse, it rips away the hope I had and leaves me feeling that this will never end, so why hang on?

The depression is way worse and overwhelms me. Back to just wanting to curl up and sleep my life away. I just want to give up. I don't want this to be my life anymore, I can't handle it and it makes life feel totally useless. No purpose, no security....

When the quality of your life is in the negatives already, this does not help. :cry:

If there is good to come, lurking around the corner, I sure hope it reaches me before I decide it's enough already. :(

 

[piratelady]

((Frozen)) I was feeling the same as you are not too long ago. When the bad days out number the good, so when you have one good day and crash, it's so hard. I will say, as my depression has been lifting I have been having more good days than bad. At first I didn't trust it and was just waiting for the fall. Now I am starting to feel more like I can enjoy it while it lasts.

What I am trying to say is it can get better.

 

[Zef]

Hi Frozen,
I think that this is what messes me up more than anything. I can deal with all of the other stuff, but the unpredictable up and down of good day/bad day is awful.