Nobody Understands Me...

[Amy3073]

I am a 38 year old step-daughter of a Vietnam vet who since the age of 5 has lived in fear & self hatred my whole life. He has since passed from agent orange, however, I feel worse than ever. My family wants nothing to do with me. The anxiety, depression, & anger have taken over everything I do. I always felt like an odd duck, but thought it would go away in time. My seventeen year old daughter chose to live with my mother 7 years ago because she never knew how I would feel from day to day. I feel more angry when I start to feel sorry for my situation. How do I move on with my life? I can't get a job. I have no friends. I have no family. I'm just looking for some direction. Where do I find help?

 

[Gamereign555]

Well I think we all have some things in common here and at the same time we all have things that can make us feel alone. Whenever I feel that way I come here and read other peoples stories and use the chat room to talk to others.
And I feel that helps, you can also tell your story and how you feel, and give others input. You will find that you have things to offer others, just as other peoples stories might inspire you. Welcome to the forums. By the way, I like your recent addition to the music media.

 

[Teller]

I'm new to this but so far I think most here can relate to you. I have a much different situation which causes me my grievences, but I understand the last few parts of being isolated with not much to go on to move forward and to thrive. If I knew how to help, get helped, find help, etc. I would offer it to you instantly. But I do not know either, which is why I am here. So far this forum thing seems to help me find ideas to consider when I am truely unwell. Hopefully, in time, I will be able to form a plan of action something coherant, plausible, and within my ability to do to get better. This forum is also helping somewhat to quell my frustrations of both not knowing what to do and feeling alone. Best of luck to you. I hope there are answers and connections you can use here.

 

[anthony]

I think you just found help Amy... welcome to the forum.

 

[Amy3073]

I want to thank you all for helping me understand that I am not alone. I had a really rough one a few days ago, but have a feeling it's from finally digging deep enough to let it out. I find that when I talk about it, I have what I would call a panic attack about an hour later. Hopefully in time that will go away! Thanks again! I really needed this place!