Not able to run away from this anymore

[IamFree]

As an adult christmas for me has always been about running away from myself through various means,,,drugs alcohol sex e.t.c. its taken me a long time to learn what it is i am running away from ..even when i got sober the feelings did not come back right away...until this year...I just feel such a greif...a seemingly endless greif.

 

[Cyberluddite]

Grief is the first stage of healing. It's okay to feel, it reminds us of what we've lost... but more importantly, it can inspire us to become our greater selves because of what we've lost.

Soul alchemy isn't easy, and it isn't quick. But I can pretty much promise you that if you stick with the process, and do the best you can each day to love yourself (scars and all), it will get easier.

The world is awaiting your strength, butterfly. Don't fear the catepillar. :hug:

 

[Saywhat]

.I just feel such a greif...a seemingly endless greif.

No words of wisdom here. Just resonating with the word "endless." I don't know what to call the feeling that is in me. The softer parts of it, the parts around the edges, feel like grief. But the majority of it, I don't know. It's huge and overwhelming and makes me cry until my head is stuffed. It leaves me feeling hungover for a couple of days. It doesn't have a memory attached to it, only images. Congrats to you for facing up to it. When you figure out how to live well with it, or better yet, how to dissolve it in healthy ways, please share. Meanwhile, take care.