Not Having A Good Day

[Howard Beal]

I am feeling alone empty, hallow inside I don't know what to do except drink and I can't do that.

 

[Lucycat]

I am sorry you are feeling so bad.
Have been there.
have fought the drink - and not always won.
I can't help.
I just wish you well
Lucy x

 

[Howard Beal]

Than you Lucy, I have got to find another way to keep out the past. I am not so lucky as the rest of you guys, I don't have a therapist I can run off to and tell things to. I am trying to do the best I can. With what I know.

 

[cherryblossom]

You might not have a therapist to tell things to, but you have us!!

 

[Howard Beal]

Just being there knowing that someone is there. Drinkwise I am strong, it's being faced with day to day crap is when I find it hard. Thanks Lucy :)

 

[Howard Beal]

You might not have a therapist to tell things to, but you have us!!

and major thanks to you too cherryblossom without you my secret would still be with me. It has not changed the way I feel inside. But who knows what tomorrow brings. Good or bad. I also like the fact you guys know my deepest secrets and darkest fears and did not turn your backs on me. Oh I am quite sure there were more than a few viewers of my diary and said wow that's some crazy s***. But that's why I didn't make an account with my real name and Reg email. I can simply prentend it wasn't me who did that.:)

 

[cherryblossom]

But that's why I didn't make an account with my real name and Reg email. I can simply prentend it wasn't me who did that.:)

LOL!! Cherryblossom isn't my real name either :lol:!! That's the beauty of internet forums. You get to speak your mind, share your thoughts and secrets etc, yet remain anonymous. But whilst knowing that others here understand, care, and offer support, understanding and advice.

Changing how you feel inside takes time. And I don't suggest anyone shares their secrets by shouting it from the roof tops for all to hear. Nor do I think the internet can replace real life relationships, and sharing of experiences. But this is a start. It's a start to learning to accept your past, in a safe setting, among other people who have lived through similar situations, and understand your difficulties.

 

[anndeb]

Each little step we may take in telling our stories, whether here or to a trusted friend or t can bring us that much closer to healing I think. Good luck.

 

[Howard Beal]

Each little step we may take in telling our stories, whether here or to a trusted friend or t can bring us that much closer to healing I think. Good luck.

thank you for your kind words. I can only rely on your experiences, as I do not have a T. As of now, I don't think I can do something like that. I have major trust issues, as I am very fearfull of people, and I hate crowds.