Not Suicidal... Just Wanting To Disappear...

[Raj]

I'm having same thoughts, why did she even marry me. I was totally honest how messed up I am from start. Let's all keep each other propped up!

Raj

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

This is exactly how I feel sometimes...thankfully I can "hide" by sleeping...most of the time.

 

[Bill]

Sorry, I wish I had an answer. My only answer is to fake my way through life. Nothing like faking your way through life then feeling the guilt of being a fraud but can’t survive otherwise.

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes no where welcome 'as is', and no escape.

 

[Som1 in Z]

Haha, then you know how I feel everyday of this torturing lifestyle of mine, finally some one can talk to.I feel ya. I have been feeling this ever since elementary school, when I used to everyday at night. Now a days I am still awake from long before, but you just feel like you want to run away and you just feel a pain in the back for everybody, and you fake your pain to others, but at you are truly yourself but just awake with emptiness inside of you. I truly actually wonder how life would be if I ran away, if I didn't exist........









I'll always have those dreams where everybody would be happy without me , and nobody to save me from this distraught.

Lol sorry "used to cry everyday at night

 

[cupfish]

Sometimes I think we get into a state of exhaustion so deep, so profound, that we shut down inside. It's like you can deal with PTSD for a long time being -- or at least being perceived as -- normal. Then you can't. You cannot deal at all. I go numb and punish myself by not getting up and trying something else. Life is long.

Sorry, I wish I had an answer. My only answer is to fake my way through life. Nothing like faking your way through lif...

100% It's like looking through a glass into the normal world but you can't actually participate.

 

[I agree]

I know that feeling of not wanting to belong to anything anymore. It is like there is always that slight hope of something substantial making you want to stay but something always seems to interrupt that state of being. It kind of turns into a feeling of hopelessness, like you are holding onto a thread. You want something or someone to save you from yourself. But I don't want to commit suicide either, I just want to become invisible. The world and people in it are crazy, it is so difficult to be a part of people who can be so cold and cruel to each other. it is quite difficult to trust anyone because disappointment always seems to follow. So, what is this feeling?

 

[WhoamI]

It is hard to fight the feeling of hopelessness today. I feel like a disappointment to my wife and children. I even feel inadequate trying to express the feeling of emptiness, hopelessness, despair and solitude. Who am I? Why do I feel this way ALL the time. Why can't I enjoy anything in my life when I have so much to be thankful for? I want to disappear.