On Meds, Have Been Before,...

[Charlie21]

I have been on meds since I was 16, on and off. Currently am on a few, been home from deployment for about 9 months. Nightmares, and waking up has slowed extremely. However, irritation, and anger, and arguing with wife, has not. I feel like half, and half about meds. I know they can help. But I also feel, like I want to do this alone. Like on my own. Be my own person, and be 100% confident in me, my thoughts, etc. I still have struggled greatly with memory, and concentration. As I have said before, I didn't return fire, or get blown up. I would just like some feedback on, what people think off med treatment, and relationship building. And if returning home, can make a service member resent their loved one, or maybe they had rushed into a relationship before the stress and symptoms really hit. I appreciate all time, and feedback. Thank you.

 

[Zipperhead]

My meds have really helped me to level out to a point where I can function more or less normally while doing therapy. Only problem I see is that I can't really tell if the therapy is really helping or if it's just the meds.

This is the second post where you have said you were just a support type. Never shot, never got hit. Well, I wasn't a support type. And I did get hit. But I can tell you this much as truth. I drove up the trails in the sandbox in a 50 ton Armoured Vehicle. If someone shot at me, I had a little red button that solved my problem. The guys behind me in the 10 ton truck couldn't defend themselves, didn't have 2 feet of armour and often carried loads that could go boom. Who was brave, me or them? Don't judge yourself.

 

[Ned]

Meds, as little as possible, have really helped me. They are like a little bit of first aid that lets the noise levels (anxiety and jumpiness) return to a sensible background level where I can start consciously dealing with things. And dealing with things makes me feel overall better.
Fargo said a while ago, if you had a 4-inch gash in your leg, you'd accept that you need stitches and not just a Band-Aid.
Same shit. If you could use the med, it's not a cop-out.
And yes, you can end up resenting the innocents. That's natural. Make sure she understands it's nothing personal.