One Day I Hope For Peace

[Deleted member 20280]

One day I hope for peace, My life was shattered beyond recognistion when I was diagnosed with this shitty disease.

I know that my abuses and trauma's are in the past and cannot hurt me now but WHY, that one question haunts me every waking moment of the day. WHY did they have to steal my dreams and take away everything that I love so dearly. WHY. Because what did not kill me will make me stronger. NO they did not kill me, they just killed my dreams, they stole my everything, They took what is and always will be the most dearest things close to m,y heart.

EVERYTHING. My family, my beautiful children, my dreams are all gone now and I will never get those back.

BASTARDS

f*ckING BASTARDS

 

[rainy_daze]

I hear you Laurie.

Has something happened with regards to your children/you seeing your children?

I do not have great words of wisdom or comfort to give you, but please know that I care. I think you will have peace when you no longer ask the WHY question, as sometimes there is just no answer to it.

:hug: You can PM me. And try to rest. I know it is so difficult to do, but it might take the edge off how you're feeling.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Dear Laurie,
Sometimes on the way to a dream, we get lost and find a different one. A friend gave me a magnet with that saying on it. I have lost many dreams and grieve deeply. I wish that the quote is true. So far things haven't gotten worse. At least things are status quo. I am so sorry how much you hurt. You say the nicest, kindest words to people on this site. I hope they circle around you when you are sad.
Kwan

 

[Deleted member 20280]

One day I will return home, I will see the smiling faces of those I hold dear to my heart. One day I will be reuinited with those I love so dearly and with a passion no man could ever understand.

 

[SwordsPandaGirl]

Sorry you have been feeling this way Laurie. Keep your chin up and be kind to yourself. There is a possibility for everything. I hope you find everything you want in life.

swords :hug:

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Tonight I simply feel that I had everything I could ever have dreamed of taken from me. That is what they took away from me, My soul. They literally took everything I have been, am now or ever will be. They took a part of me I will never find be able to get back.

 

[SwordsPandaGirl]

Keep trying Laurie. Do it for your children. One day you will have them in your life again. :hug: don't give up on them.

 

[illusionist]

No you can't get back the past, what is done is done....no matter how painful that is. All you can do is move on to get your life back....so when the day comes, and you are given a second chance with them, you are in the best possible place physically and mentally to make the very best of that chance.

They need you to be in that place....just as much as you badly need it Laurie.

Hope this phase in your journey turns the corner for you soon.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Dear @illusionist I am sure there is a turning point in the road ahead, my recovery journey has been a hard fought battle. I will overcome.

 

[illusionist]

Been there Laurie, so really do understand..keep fighting!

 

[Deleted member 20280]

All I have left is my fight, and fight I shall.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

I just need a selfish moment and some time to let out my own emotions for a change, I am seen as a strong man here yet I am still a sufferer all the same. I still need that support and a hug when the going get's tough for me.